Tuesday, May 04, 2010
The Quantico Rod and Gun Club will host the third annual Wounded Veterans picnic on 8 may 2010 from 11 to 5PM.
Congressman Wittman will attend along with several other dignitaries.
Several Beauty Queens a live band and plenty of food to go around.
Fishing lounging and good old fashioned fun.
There will be over 300 military present.
We hope to see you there!
Dear Friend --
You and I have the chance to be part of something really special. It's for our troops and their moms -- and it's for our troops who are moms.
With Mother's Day fast approaching, the USO is making sure this year there are More Minutes for Mom.
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Through this great effort, we can help our troops who are separated from their families make more phone calls home. We can make sure that no matter the distance, all our brave service men and women can connect with their families this Mother's Day.
So please donate now to support the More Minutes for Mom campaign. Your $15 donation can provide 300 minutes of talk time from Afghanistan.
I can only imagine how hard it is knowing your son or daughter is in harm's way halfway around the world.
And just think what it's like for a young mother serving with her unit in Afghanistan or Iraq and knowing that Mother's Day hug from her child will have to wait until next year.
We've got to do everything we can to help troops and their families connect on and around Mother's Day.
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I'm so proud to be a part of this special USO effort. I know you'll do everything you can to help.
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Saturday, April 24, 2010
This morning was a good morning. I was a little concerned when I woke up as the clouds looked like they just might rain on our walk. It didn't matter though, we were going..., "come rain or come shine".
The walk for the March of Dimes had a great turnout, Especially since it was just for Rockville, MD and this same walk is/was going on all over the country. The "Linz" team aka...TEAM ROCKY:)) was able to raise $1650.00. I am very excited for that and we well exceeded our goal from last year.
Its been a journey over the last year and a half and April was Carter's due date although he came in January at 23.4 weeks. He is 20 lbs this week and although he just bounced back from a hospital stay and pneumonia last week, had a good time at the walk and made it through while taking a few short cat naps along the way. Smiles included, of course.
This week also brought with it some concern. First, I just want to say that as a Mom and this is my non-medical opinion, I think Carter will continue to prove everyone wrong. Carter was assessed this week in the High Risk Clinic. Now this is a group of 5-6 therapist and doctors. This setting does not involve blood test, xrays or any other invasive type of assessment but is purely done on a physical ability assessment with toys, cognitive development and physical strength. (rolling, sitting, talking...etc) They came to the conclusion that Carter "may" have Cerebral Palsy. In my mind, heart and soul, I think Carter just got over pneumonia, does things in Carter time and its too early to tell. Technically he is only 12 months corrected and really it is not until 18-24 months that a CP diagnosis can be made with any certainty. CP is also VERY broad.
So I am asking for continued prayer for Carter. He is so amazing and lifts me daily. I know in my heart, God has special plans for Carter and maybe his biggest lesson is that we should all believe. Even if all of his test confirmed this, it will not change the fact that Carter is so special and a miracle.
Please keep Carter in your daily prayers!
The walk for the March of Dimes had a great turnout, Especially since it was just for Rockville, MD and this same walk is/was going on all over the country. The "Linz" team aka...TEAM ROCKY:)) was able to raise $1650.00. I am very excited for that and we well exceeded our goal from last year.
Its been a journey over the last year and a half and April was Carter's due date although he came in January at 23.4 weeks. He is 20 lbs this week and although he just bounced back from a hospital stay and pneumonia last week, had a good time at the walk and made it through while taking a few short cat naps along the way. Smiles included, of course.
This week also brought with it some concern. First, I just want to say that as a Mom and this is my non-medical opinion, I think Carter will continue to prove everyone wrong. Carter was assessed this week in the High Risk Clinic. Now this is a group of 5-6 therapist and doctors. This setting does not involve blood test, xrays or any other invasive type of assessment but is purely done on a physical ability assessment with toys, cognitive development and physical strength. (rolling, sitting, talking...etc) They came to the conclusion that Carter "may" have Cerebral Palsy. In my mind, heart and soul, I think Carter just got over pneumonia, does things in Carter time and its too early to tell. Technically he is only 12 months corrected and really it is not until 18-24 months that a CP diagnosis can be made with any certainty. CP is also VERY broad.
So I am asking for continued prayer for Carter. He is so amazing and lifts me daily. I know in my heart, God has special plans for Carter and maybe his biggest lesson is that we should all believe. Even if all of his test confirmed this, it will not change the fact that Carter is so special and a miracle.
Please keep Carter in your daily prayers!
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
I remember when I was a little girl, I loved the wind. I used to stand on our picnic table in the back yard in Georgia and jump off. I thought I was "Wonderwomen". Little did I know that those bangles would become such a fashion statement in time...ha! I thought they just stopped bullets:)
Well I am not super, wonder or any adjective but I am me. With that comes a whole set of what am I? I think this is something we all search for everyday of our lives. I love shoes, this I am certain of. Number one reason...regardless of what time of month or if I have eaten two much of anything...they always fit and are faithful.They get me places, makes me feel special and allow me to never feel bloated. Gosh, I REALLY do love shoes!!!!
So this brings me back to my great search. Who am I? This is a question as parents we often ask ourselves as we should always lead by example. I hope I do for Carter daily.
As stated in the country music world last year, "I got lost in this big ole world and forgot who I am".
Country and shoes, they both just fit. Gotta love that~
Well I am not super, wonder or any adjective but I am me. With that comes a whole set of what am I? I think this is something we all search for everyday of our lives. I love shoes, this I am certain of. Number one reason...regardless of what time of month or if I have eaten two much of anything...they always fit and are faithful.They get me places, makes me feel special and allow me to never feel bloated. Gosh, I REALLY do love shoes!!!!
So this brings me back to my great search. Who am I? This is a question as parents we often ask ourselves as we should always lead by example. I hope I do for Carter daily.
As stated in the country music world last year, "I got lost in this big ole world and forgot who I am".
Country and shoes, they both just fit. Gotta love that~
Monday, April 12, 2010
Everyday I am amazed at people. I have learned that if you smile at a stranger, 99% of them will smile back. I have also learned that if you smile at someone who dislikes you, they will smile back too. It is unfortunate that under some smiles are thoughts. Not all good and not with good intention.
I find myself in a place today that I am once again stunned. I am stunned how someone can say something to a group of teens about someone that they really shouldn't. I am extremely protective when it comes to children and teens and I just don't get it. As adults and parents, we have an obligation to lead by example.
As parents, we are not rockstars, beauty queens, award winning authors or superstars...we are parents and that is and should be our first priority. Saying that, if someone has an issue with someone...as a parent or about their body parts...one should talk to the adult/parent and not a group of teens.
Bullying happens at all ages. Lead by example. No one is better than anyone in life. God is the higher power and not the individual.
I find myself in a place today that I am once again stunned. I am stunned how someone can say something to a group of teens about someone that they really shouldn't. I am extremely protective when it comes to children and teens and I just don't get it. As adults and parents, we have an obligation to lead by example.
As parents, we are not rockstars, beauty queens, award winning authors or superstars...we are parents and that is and should be our first priority. Saying that, if someone has an issue with someone...as a parent or about their body parts...one should talk to the adult/parent and not a group of teens.
Bullying happens at all ages. Lead by example. No one is better than anyone in life. God is the higher power and not the individual.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Are we all living with Angela Landsbury?
One of our favorite shows is "Castle". As I was watching with my husband I was reminded that we all have a little bit of our Grandparents or parents in us with , "Murder, She wrote". There is nothing better than a who done it! I was in a murder mystery dinner theater for a show called, "Let's Kill the Boss". It ran for about a year. I was the choreographer also but I have to admit there weren't great dance numbers in it but pretty good one's:))) I was "Una"...the mistress. Not sure why but I was always typecast as the mystress, prostitute or soap type actress. I once had an agent tell me that I would never do well in commercials because I didn't look like I would feed my dog. Nice, huh!!!!! This is why you need to smile and smile big always!
So I think we all have a little Landsbury in us. We love mystery, we love to solve and most of all we love the fear of the unknown without any great "real" drama behind it. Danielle Steele, Star Wars, James Patterson...all great authors/sequels and well read in our family...oh and Murder She Wrote! Perhaps its because we always get to figure out good from evil. Pulitzer prize no, fun yes...read on.
One of our favorite shows is "Castle". As I was watching with my husband I was reminded that we all have a little bit of our Grandparents or parents in us with , "Murder, She wrote". There is nothing better than a who done it! I was in a murder mystery dinner theater for a show called, "Let's Kill the Boss". It ran for about a year. I was the choreographer also but I have to admit there weren't great dance numbers in it but pretty good one's:))) I was "Una"...the mistress. Not sure why but I was always typecast as the mystress, prostitute or soap type actress. I once had an agent tell me that I would never do well in commercials because I didn't look like I would feed my dog. Nice, huh!!!!! This is why you need to smile and smile big always!
So I think we all have a little Landsbury in us. We love mystery, we love to solve and most of all we love the fear of the unknown without any great "real" drama behind it. Danielle Steele, Star Wars, James Patterson...all great authors/sequels and well read in our family...oh and Murder She Wrote! Perhaps its because we always get to figure out good from evil. Pulitzer prize no, fun yes...read on.
Tuesday, April 06, 2010
Do you ever feel like you just aged 20 years in two? Today is one of those days that the only word that comes to mind is exhaustion. Andy has been gone on military duty for a while so I was managing the house, appointments and furries. This I am good at. The "list". Wake up...check....walk dogs...check...Carters appts check.....shower...check minus:) I function with the internal and external list. Then the hubby comes back and bamm...the list explodes!!!! Todays list....wake up, get Carter up and dressed, make Andy breakfast (yes I do that:), get taxes done, run errands...etc...etc...etc....so I am just tired which is ok. In fact it is great.
In a life that we function I think sometimes we forget to live, to love, to explore and most of all to forgive. A dear friend/family member of mine lost his Father. So today when I was feeling sorry for myself for my "list", I sat back and realized how amazing life is and the people in it. I thought to myself how short life is and how mad at myself I was for no reaching out more to those I love to let them know they are never alone and how special they are.
To Joey, I know today and tomorrow will be tough. Your Father knew you were an incredible son. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Big hug to your Mom....we love you!
To the angels from above
Guard us with your special love
As we walk to unknown paths
knowing it will never last
Find a way, to let us see
For the love you see in me....
This is why, God gives us wings...to fly
In a life that we function I think sometimes we forget to live, to love, to explore and most of all to forgive. A dear friend/family member of mine lost his Father. So today when I was feeling sorry for myself for my "list", I sat back and realized how amazing life is and the people in it. I thought to myself how short life is and how mad at myself I was for no reaching out more to those I love to let them know they are never alone and how special they are.
To Joey, I know today and tomorrow will be tough. Your Father knew you were an incredible son. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Big hug to your Mom....we love you!
To the angels from above
Guard us with your special love
As we walk to unknown paths
knowing it will never last
Find a way, to let us see
For the love you see in me....
This is why, God gives us wings...to fly
Friday, March 26, 2010
Life is interesting. It definitely keeps you on your toes. It is hard to believe that tomorrow is my Birthday. Really, another one???? Time flies. I know we all hear that but it really does. One day 18 with the world in front of you then suddenly poof…30ish with the wonder of what you left behind.
I have had a good couple of weeks. I visited the American Heart Association office in DC and have been working on an educational program with the a Adventist Hospital chain in hopes of educating women on the signs, symptoms and realization that heart disease effects women of all ages and all weights. Through AHA my spot aired on our local ABC affiliate and I received a positive response. Many had no idea that I had had a heart attack and stent placed. We all hear life is short but until the realization that it really is hits you I think we all think, “naw, it will never happen to me.” In a land of super Moms, Teens and women in general we are all trying to prove something. The unfortunate thing is we can and often do loose ourselves in the process.
Andy, Carter and I also attended the PA International pageants. Scott and Jodi Cessna are amazing people and put on a great pageant. Thank you to the Competitive Image for providing me with the perfect dress for the event. They have the most amazing clothes and always make me feel like a queen or DIVA ))) I spend my life staring at monitors so it felt really good to shower and feel pretty! My hubby appreciated it also! We had a great time in Altoona, PA with the family and a wonderful and inspiring friend. It was also great to see so many visiting “queens” or as I like to call many of them, friends. Go Heidi Scheer for Ohio…sorry just had to put in a plug))))
I love the International system and that it promotes community service and platform (as a Mrs, that is 50% of your score). Congratulations to all the new queens in the Teen/Miss/Mrs PA International program. You will love nationals and the family it gives you and the amazing lesson you learn that if you walk in someone elses shoes, you will learn and grow. This is why I feel platform is so important. Everyone has a story. Imagine if our Grandparent wrote a book. This is where history begins!
This weekend, well, it is my Birthday. Without going into too much detail. This week was hard but Carter is doing well and I survived. My pending b-day….I will be sharing it with great friends and Carter. Andy is on Military duty((((
My walk for the March of Dimes is April 24th and I am so close to my goal. If you can provide support, thank you!!!! As a Mother of a former 23 weeker, I can attest that the March of Dimes makes a difference…everyday. It is a child’s life, so lets start it the right way.
Off to hit the treadmill AGAIN!!! Seriously, it may be gravity, it may be age, it may just be exhaustion but what is up with that dang treadmill. Its always trying to kick my butt!
I have had a good couple of weeks. I visited the American Heart Association office in DC and have been working on an educational program with the a Adventist Hospital chain in hopes of educating women on the signs, symptoms and realization that heart disease effects women of all ages and all weights. Through AHA my spot aired on our local ABC affiliate and I received a positive response. Many had no idea that I had had a heart attack and stent placed. We all hear life is short but until the realization that it really is hits you I think we all think, “naw, it will never happen to me.” In a land of super Moms, Teens and women in general we are all trying to prove something. The unfortunate thing is we can and often do loose ourselves in the process.
Andy, Carter and I also attended the PA International pageants. Scott and Jodi Cessna are amazing people and put on a great pageant. Thank you to the Competitive Image for providing me with the perfect dress for the event. They have the most amazing clothes and always make me feel like a queen or DIVA ))) I spend my life staring at monitors so it felt really good to shower and feel pretty! My hubby appreciated it also! We had a great time in Altoona, PA with the family and a wonderful and inspiring friend. It was also great to see so many visiting “queens” or as I like to call many of them, friends. Go Heidi Scheer for Ohio…sorry just had to put in a plug))))
I love the International system and that it promotes community service and platform (as a Mrs, that is 50% of your score). Congratulations to all the new queens in the Teen/Miss/Mrs PA International program. You will love nationals and the family it gives you and the amazing lesson you learn that if you walk in someone elses shoes, you will learn and grow. This is why I feel platform is so important. Everyone has a story. Imagine if our Grandparent wrote a book. This is where history begins!
This weekend, well, it is my Birthday. Without going into too much detail. This week was hard but Carter is doing well and I survived. My pending b-day….I will be sharing it with great friends and Carter. Andy is on Military duty((((
My walk for the March of Dimes is April 24th and I am so close to my goal. If you can provide support, thank you!!!! As a Mother of a former 23 weeker, I can attest that the March of Dimes makes a difference…everyday. It is a child’s life, so lets start it the right way.
Off to hit the treadmill AGAIN!!! Seriously, it may be gravity, it may be age, it may just be exhaustion but what is up with that dang treadmill. Its always trying to kick my butt!
Thursday, March 11, 2010
I will always think that the greatest episode of survivor would be a season of pageant gals in the amazon. Lipstick, check....razor, check....padded bikini,,,,check.....competitive spirit...PRICELESS. Just lets not narrow it down to heros and villians!!!!! Wait that is what voy is for!
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
The day is starting to show the signs of spring. The remaining snow is cooling down the air as it melts but at least the temperature is in the 60's. Cloudy though in preparation of the rainy days to follow. At least we did have a full day of sunshine. Maybe it is the clouds or the pending rain but I starting thinking about everything. For me, this is not always a good thing:) I remember last year when I competed in Maryland for Mrs Maryland International and again over the summer at Mrs International. There were so many eyes and frank statements made in judgement on how I could do that when my son had been in the hospital for 165 days and still was struggling with many health issues. Carter was by my side but that didn't matter to some.There is something to the statement that if you sit down for too long you may not be able to get up. For me, it was a respite in a time of great struggle and how I survived outside of the tears I shed daily.
There was a child that passed when Carter was in the NICU that was tracking as Carter was and born as early. I was pretty horrified when the nurse commented that maybe it was for the best. I can't ever imagine that was the best for anyone and certainly not his parents. What this year and the 9 and 6 years prior since loosing my Mother and Father have taught me is that strength is found in God, in love and most importantly your family. I think my heart attack in January and surgery just made me realize that life is so very precious and it is important to always fight for those you love and advocate for them and their causes. When I look back I guess I could feel sorry for myself and I do at times, because I am human...but that can't be the state of which I live daily. Carter needs me and I need him. Last week after his surgery I think what hurt the most was that it took two days to get a smile from him. He gives LOTS of smiles daily so I was really in need of one. When he smiled I knew everything would be just fine.
Its important to not sit down for too long. This life waits for no one. Time moves ahead as I write but doesn't it always? It never stops. It is already two seconds past my last word. Time flies....ehhhhh....
There was a child that passed when Carter was in the NICU that was tracking as Carter was and born as early. I was pretty horrified when the nurse commented that maybe it was for the best. I can't ever imagine that was the best for anyone and certainly not his parents. What this year and the 9 and 6 years prior since loosing my Mother and Father have taught me is that strength is found in God, in love and most importantly your family. I think my heart attack in January and surgery just made me realize that life is so very precious and it is important to always fight for those you love and advocate for them and their causes. When I look back I guess I could feel sorry for myself and I do at times, because I am human...but that can't be the state of which I live daily. Carter needs me and I need him. Last week after his surgery I think what hurt the most was that it took two days to get a smile from him. He gives LOTS of smiles daily so I was really in need of one. When he smiled I knew everything would be just fine.
Its important to not sit down for too long. This life waits for no one. Time moves ahead as I write but doesn't it always? It never stops. It is already two seconds past my last word. Time flies....ehhhhh....
Monday, March 08, 2010
Last night I met the most amazing young man in the PEDS ward. He just came up from the PICU and turned 15.His name is Ashton Ebert and has a blog on Caring Bridge. I found him so inspiring. I remember earlier in the day I saw him walking with his Mother. These are the true heros to me. Our children. All children.
Carter was discharged today from the hospital. It is so good to be home. The best part is all of the giggles I have gotten. That and I actually get a real shower and bed. Carter is such a trooper and I am certain will miss his daily flirts with the hospital staff. However, there is no better feeling than when the whole family is back together.
How does anyone ever get better in the hospital? You can never sleep?
Ahh...good to be home....early to bed for me!
Carter was discharged today from the hospital. It is so good to be home. The best part is all of the giggles I have gotten. That and I actually get a real shower and bed. Carter is such a trooper and I am certain will miss his daily flirts with the hospital staff. However, there is no better feeling than when the whole family is back together.
How does anyone ever get better in the hospital? You can never sleep?
Ahh...good to be home....early to bed for me!
Wednesday, March 03, 2010
I am sitting in the surgical waiting room at Walter Reed with so many thoughts that are going through my mind. We have been here almost a week and at some point it all just becomes a blur. I am happy that Carter seems to be ok with the change of scenary although I am sure he would like to once again feel the comfort of a full tummy. They stopped his feeds last Saturday in preparation for surgery and unfortunately due to complications, his surgery was moved until today. This gave his lungs time to be in the best shape possible and for that reason alone I am ok with it. He was smiling this morning but of course this was before they came in to attempt to draw blood and put drops in his eyes. (While Carter is sedated they are also going to take a look at his eyes.) The Nissen I have been told takes about 3 1/2 hours. Oh yeah...so I am sitting here worried and waiting.
I am carrying around Carters glow worm which is randomly going off no doubt making others wonder if I don't belong on another floor. We went to get coffee and a guy saw me kiss it and he winked at me. Yes, I looked a bit odd but I do find comfort in having it close to me as it is always close to Carter. Keep in mind I also travel with Halo, my first born pups (my favorite but don't tell Jack:), favorite doggie toy. Maybe I do need therapy. My husband often kids me that I probably shouldn't take her "favorite" toy. What we Mothers do because we love our little one's so much!
I do have to wonder why waiting rooms are always so cold! The temperature gauge is of course guarded by the locked box so I have no chance of warming up what is a very chilly situation. There are a lot of people "waiting" so the room is filled with an awkward silence and the anticipation of a phone call or visit from a doctor carrying really good news. Its an odd feeling. Reminds me of flying. Once you are up in the air, you have no control. It is all in the hands of God.
So I am praying. Praying for our little plane to soar and land safely back home. May God watch over Carter, protect him and make him feel safe during the surgery. Mommy prays for a safe landing with no turbulance.
I am carrying around Carters glow worm which is randomly going off no doubt making others wonder if I don't belong on another floor. We went to get coffee and a guy saw me kiss it and he winked at me. Yes, I looked a bit odd but I do find comfort in having it close to me as it is always close to Carter. Keep in mind I also travel with Halo, my first born pups (my favorite but don't tell Jack:), favorite doggie toy. Maybe I do need therapy. My husband often kids me that I probably shouldn't take her "favorite" toy. What we Mothers do because we love our little one's so much!
I do have to wonder why waiting rooms are always so cold! The temperature gauge is of course guarded by the locked box so I have no chance of warming up what is a very chilly situation. There are a lot of people "waiting" so the room is filled with an awkward silence and the anticipation of a phone call or visit from a doctor carrying really good news. Its an odd feeling. Reminds me of flying. Once you are up in the air, you have no control. It is all in the hands of God.
So I am praying. Praying for our little plane to soar and land safely back home. May God watch over Carter, protect him and make him feel safe during the surgery. Mommy prays for a safe landing with no turbulance.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
It is hard sometimes to understand why things happen in life. I know God only gives you what you can handle but I have to say I think he has more faith in me than I do in myself.
Last Friday Carter had a sedated CT scan of his lungs and head. His head showed that his ventricles have stabilized which is VERY good news. Unfortunately, his lungs appear to have worsened. This is his first CT as in the past it was all based on xrays and how he was doing clinically. We new he had "pulmonary blebs". The CT revealed a total of 6 of them. Believe it or not but this is not the cause of the recent lung issues. Carter has chronic aspiration which has resulted in significant damage to his lungs. We were told that they really have not seen a baby with lungs this bad before and this was an assessment of three pulmonologist. We have been given similiar information in the past when he was in the NICU but this was also when Carter clinically was showing signs of respiratory distress. Currently except for his increased need of oxygen, he is a VERY happy baby and looks good.
The overall assessment is that Carter is currently functioning on about 25% of his lung capacity. We have to stop the apiration of Carter or he has very strong possibilty of going into respiratory failure. They are doing a Nissen Fundoplication on Monday to hopefully stop the constant reflux . He will be admitted on Friday.
I pray he is quick to come off the vent as this is our biggest concern. I know in my heart he will. He is so amazing and you don't get much better than Carter. He has 6 teeth and the best smile ever. My
I understand people have it worse and we feel so blessed for all the love and support we continue to receive. Nobody lives a life free of ailments either in themselves or a loved one. I am reminded of that everyday.
If I may ask, please include Carter in your prayers because praying does work! God is great and I believe that. I know he has the inside track and all will be fine.
Last Friday Carter had a sedated CT scan of his lungs and head. His head showed that his ventricles have stabilized which is VERY good news. Unfortunately, his lungs appear to have worsened. This is his first CT as in the past it was all based on xrays and how he was doing clinically. We new he had "pulmonary blebs". The CT revealed a total of 6 of them. Believe it or not but this is not the cause of the recent lung issues. Carter has chronic aspiration which has resulted in significant damage to his lungs. We were told that they really have not seen a baby with lungs this bad before and this was an assessment of three pulmonologist. We have been given similiar information in the past when he was in the NICU but this was also when Carter clinically was showing signs of respiratory distress. Currently except for his increased need of oxygen, he is a VERY happy baby and looks good.
The overall assessment is that Carter is currently functioning on about 25% of his lung capacity. We have to stop the apiration of Carter or he has very strong possibilty of going into respiratory failure. They are doing a Nissen Fundoplication on Monday to hopefully stop the constant reflux . He will be admitted on Friday.
I pray he is quick to come off the vent as this is our biggest concern. I know in my heart he will. He is so amazing and you don't get much better than Carter. He has 6 teeth and the best smile ever. My
Rocky.
I understand people have it worse and we feel so blessed for all the love and support we continue to receive. Nobody lives a life free of ailments either in themselves or a loved one. I am reminded of that everyday.
If I may ask, please include Carter in your prayers because praying does work! God is great and I believe that. I know he has the inside track and all will be fine.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
WHEN DEANNA LINZ had a heart attack last month, no one believed what was happening — not even her. But the Rockville resident knew something was wrong that morning. "I felt pressure in my chest like a pill was stuck in my throat," she remembers. Then she had trouble lifting her 1-year-old son and grew increasingly anxious. So, Linz dialed 911 and went to the hospital.
"I thought I was being silly, and they thought so, too," she says. One ER nurse assured her it was just a pulled muscle. But since both of her parents died in their 50s of heart disease, the doctor ordered extra tests to be careful, and sure enough, it was a heart attack. She had a 70 percent blockage, which required immediate surgery.
"People don't realize that you don't have to be overweight or diabetic," she says. "There's this preconceived notion that there's a look to heart disease." And that look is nothing like Linz, an avid exerciser and non-smoker who "lives on chicken breasts and Boca Burgers."
She's such a model of healthy living that she's a star in the beauty queen world, and even competed to be Mrs. International 2009 (hence, the photo above). That pageant just happens to have an alliance with the American Heart Association's Go Red for Women campaign, which raises awareness about the fact that heart disease is the No. 1 killer of women in the U.S.
Linz was already well aware due to her family history. Her mother, who was just a size 6 when she passed away, also had trouble getting people to take her medical problems seriously. "They tried to put her on antidepressants," Linz says. Her father was "the healthy one" until he dropped dead after ignoring the signs of a heart attack.
There were lessons in those experiences for Linz. She's developed behaviors very different from that of her mother — a smoker from the South who ate her food deep-fried — and kept on top of her numbers with frequent doctor visits.
It wasn't enough to keep her immune to heart disease, but her vigilance promises to keep her ticker going despite it. Moving forward, she's happy to skip the hamburgers, walk as much as possible and take a handful of drugs every morning if it means she can spend more time with her husband and son.
And if Linz ever thinks something is amiss, she's not going to feel silly asking for help. "This has made me aware that life is short and precious, and you need to be an advocate for yourself," she says. "Nobody knows you better than you."
» Ticker Time: Valentine's Day is over, but it's still American Heart Month. And the American Heart Association is hoping you mark the occasion by visiting Heart.org/mylifecheck. The site walks you through a series of questions organized around "the simple seven," the factors that affect heart health: get active, control cholesterol, eat better, manage blood pressure, lose weight, reduce blood sugar and stop smoking. There's another online checkup available at Goredforwomen.com.
Photo courtesy Deanna Linz
Posted By Vicky Hallett at 12:00 AM on February 23, 2010 Tagged in Fit , Fit Newsletter , Maryland
"I thought I was being silly, and they thought so, too," she says. One ER nurse assured her it was just a pulled muscle. But since both of her parents died in their 50s of heart disease, the doctor ordered extra tests to be careful, and sure enough, it was a heart attack. She had a 70 percent blockage, which required immediate surgery.
"People don't realize that you don't have to be overweight or diabetic," she says. "There's this preconceived notion that there's a look to heart disease." And that look is nothing like Linz, an avid exerciser and non-smoker who "lives on chicken breasts and Boca Burgers."
She's such a model of healthy living that she's a star in the beauty queen world, and even competed to be Mrs. International 2009 (hence, the photo above). That pageant just happens to have an alliance with the American Heart Association's Go Red for Women campaign, which raises awareness about the fact that heart disease is the No. 1 killer of women in the U.S.
Linz was already well aware due to her family history. Her mother, who was just a size 6 when she passed away, also had trouble getting people to take her medical problems seriously. "They tried to put her on antidepressants," Linz says. Her father was "the healthy one" until he dropped dead after ignoring the signs of a heart attack.
There were lessons in those experiences for Linz. She's developed behaviors very different from that of her mother — a smoker from the South who ate her food deep-fried — and kept on top of her numbers with frequent doctor visits.
It wasn't enough to keep her immune to heart disease, but her vigilance promises to keep her ticker going despite it. Moving forward, she's happy to skip the hamburgers, walk as much as possible and take a handful of drugs every morning if it means she can spend more time with her husband and son.
And if Linz ever thinks something is amiss, she's not going to feel silly asking for help. "This has made me aware that life is short and precious, and you need to be an advocate for yourself," she says. "Nobody knows you better than you."
» Ticker Time: Valentine's Day is over, but it's still American Heart Month. And the American Heart Association is hoping you mark the occasion by visiting Heart.org/mylifecheck. The site walks you through a series of questions organized around "the simple seven," the factors that affect heart health: get active, control cholesterol, eat better, manage blood pressure, lose weight, reduce blood sugar and stop smoking. There's another online checkup available at Goredforwomen.com.
Photo courtesy Deanna Linz
Posted By Vicky Hallett at 12:00 AM on February 23, 2010 Tagged in Fit , Fit Newsletter , Maryland
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Pageantry in perspective
Lets face it, most whom have competed have never won an Oscar, Emmy or Grammy. Yes, there are the Sharon Stones and Hally Berry's of the world but in all reality a pageant is just that, a moment in time. I believe in pageantry and love it. In a life where we live day by day a pageant affords you the opportunity to feel special for 5 minutes and hopefully it encourages you to get out there and give back everyday. It offers a wonderful platform for that.
This past weekend Andy and I attended the MD/VA pageants. I was able to perform and truly loved not having the pressure of competing!!!!! You have to love a sport where you ask 4 or 5 strangers to judge you in 5 minutes are less and yet we call it fun! Deshawn did a wonderful job and the pageant ran smoothly. Congrats to all of the winners. What an amazing group of ladies!!!!
If I may ask, please continue to support all of the ladies that competed. They really all did such a wonderful job and I would have been hard pressed to pick a winner myself.
So this brings me to this week. I am happy to say the snow has slowed down. YEAH!!!!! We are hoping to have a CT scan done of Carter's lungs to see how his pulmonary blebs are structured. We are hoping for good news. Please also say a prayer for our cousin who just found out she has a malignant tumor on her spine.
Much love to all and again congrats to all of the new International title holders from this past weekend. Alabama is next weekend. Hard to believe!!!!
For a complete listing of VA and MD Internationals newest title holders, please log on to:http://www.virginiainternationalpageants.com/
Lets face it, most whom have competed have never won an Oscar, Emmy or Grammy. Yes, there are the Sharon Stones and Hally Berry's of the world but in all reality a pageant is just that, a moment in time. I believe in pageantry and love it. In a life where we live day by day a pageant affords you the opportunity to feel special for 5 minutes and hopefully it encourages you to get out there and give back everyday. It offers a wonderful platform for that.
This past weekend Andy and I attended the MD/VA pageants. I was able to perform and truly loved not having the pressure of competing!!!!! You have to love a sport where you ask 4 or 5 strangers to judge you in 5 minutes are less and yet we call it fun! Deshawn did a wonderful job and the pageant ran smoothly. Congrats to all of the winners. What an amazing group of ladies!!!!
If I may ask, please continue to support all of the ladies that competed. They really all did such a wonderful job and I would have been hard pressed to pick a winner myself.
So this brings me to this week. I am happy to say the snow has slowed down. YEAH!!!!! We are hoping to have a CT scan done of Carter's lungs to see how his pulmonary blebs are structured. We are hoping for good news. Please also say a prayer for our cousin who just found out she has a malignant tumor on her spine.
Much love to all and again congrats to all of the new International title holders from this past weekend. Alabama is next weekend. Hard to believe!!!!
For a complete listing of VA and MD Internationals newest title holders, please log on to:http://www.virginiainternationalpageants.com/
Wednesday, February 03, 2010
It is yet another snowy day here in the DC area. Snow in DC/MD/VA pretty much shuts down the world. The newscasts are covered with the scrolling graphics of school and government office closings. One of the funniest “notifications” I read today stated that a certain office was closed BUT “essential employees” must report to work. Now how would you read this? Do you just know if you are essential? If you are not essential is it a blow to your job confidence? Should you worry about job security? On the other hand, if you are essential exactly how essential can you be if you MUST drive into work and risk your life doing it? Is the company just trying to cut cost?
So today my non essential self will sit with my very essential brilliant child and enjoy the day. Inside…..well I do have to let the dogs out.
So today my non essential self will sit with my very essential brilliant child and enjoy the day. Inside…..well I do have to let the dogs out.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
The sun is out today in Maryland and I am thrilled. Yesterday we were greeting by what Lois Lane called a blizzard. We are Florida gals so anything that sticks, is a blizzard! We attempted to head to Delaware were we we greeted by so much snow that we were crawling at about 20 miles an hour for the majority of the trip until we finally had to turn around. I did manage to do my first 180 on the highway. The angels were with us because no one hit us and we did not hit anyone. God is Great. Congrats o the new Mrs Delaware America. I am sorry I was unable to make it to judge but from what I had read, each lady deserved the crown and would have been a great representative so in a way it was a relief that I did not have to choose!
This past week has been a busy one. Lois Lane flew in on Tuesday to help me out while Andy was off with the military. I think everyone worries to much but I am feeling great and the idea of having a heart attack or that I did have a heart attack just does not seem real.
Carter had many appointments this week and overall, they were good. There are always ups and downs but as I have always said Carter does things in Carter time. As long as he gets there, he can take as long as he wants. We went to National Naval for visits with his pulmonologist, primary and high risk early intervention team. We are so lucky to have such an amazing group of doctors that follow Carter on his journey. We also travelled to Baltimore to visit with a Neuro surgeon for a consult on Carters hydrocephalus and the possible need for a shunt. Right now he does not. YEAH! Unfortunately, his pulmonary bleb has progressed a bit but we will push forward with his team and continue to be his biggest advocate. It is hard not to feel like there is something I am doing wrong but I know I can't go there. I am a Mom though and that is just what we do. We worry. All the time and then when there is nothing to worry about we worry why!
I also had the opportunity to share my heart story with WJLA, News Channel 8 in DC that will air on Friday the 5th. (NATIONAL WEAR RED DAY!)After working with AHA and Go Red for many years, they asked me if I would share my story. Not to be repetitious but I still am in shock. Hopefully by me sharing my story it will remind others that Heart Disease does not hold prejudice. It is important to know your numbers, live a healthy lifestyle, make the necessary changes and most of all...BE YOUR OWN ADVOCATE. Listen to yourself and listen to your heart. If not for yourself, but for your family.
On a funny or not so funny side note, I also developed a rash all over my body from one of my new meds. Oh yeah...nothing like a rash ALL OVER. Yes, that means EVERYWHERE:)
Off to visit with friends and Andy is going to see AVATAR. I look forward to the day when Carter can see a movie and love it. Have I mentioned yet today that he has the best smile!!!!!
This past week has been a busy one. Lois Lane flew in on Tuesday to help me out while Andy was off with the military. I think everyone worries to much but I am feeling great and the idea of having a heart attack or that I did have a heart attack just does not seem real.
Carter had many appointments this week and overall, they were good. There are always ups and downs but as I have always said Carter does things in Carter time. As long as he gets there, he can take as long as he wants. We went to National Naval for visits with his pulmonologist, primary and high risk early intervention team. We are so lucky to have such an amazing group of doctors that follow Carter on his journey. We also travelled to Baltimore to visit with a Neuro surgeon for a consult on Carters hydrocephalus and the possible need for a shunt. Right now he does not. YEAH! Unfortunately, his pulmonary bleb has progressed a bit but we will push forward with his team and continue to be his biggest advocate. It is hard not to feel like there is something I am doing wrong but I know I can't go there. I am a Mom though and that is just what we do. We worry. All the time and then when there is nothing to worry about we worry why!
I also had the opportunity to share my heart story with WJLA, News Channel 8 in DC that will air on Friday the 5th. (NATIONAL WEAR RED DAY!)After working with AHA and Go Red for many years, they asked me if I would share my story. Not to be repetitious but I still am in shock. Hopefully by me sharing my story it will remind others that Heart Disease does not hold prejudice. It is important to know your numbers, live a healthy lifestyle, make the necessary changes and most of all...BE YOUR OWN ADVOCATE. Listen to yourself and listen to your heart. If not for yourself, but for your family.
On a funny or not so funny side note, I also developed a rash all over my body from one of my new meds. Oh yeah...nothing like a rash ALL OVER. Yes, that means EVERYWHERE:)
Off to visit with friends and Andy is going to see AVATAR. I look forward to the day when Carter can see a movie and love it. Have I mentioned yet today that he has the best smile!!!!!
Monday, January 18, 2010
Finding strength in Mondays~
It was a week ago that I found myself in the ER about this time. It still seems like it all was a bad dream. The realization is that life is short, I am blessed and really trusting your own instincts is key to early heart detection. My Father had a heart attack starting about 9 am in the morning but refused to go to the hospital until "after work". He passed away two weeks later after double valve replacement. I think perhaps this was in my mind during the event. I can't help but think my parents were there guiding me along the way. I have to be healthy and be HERE for my son. He fought for me, I will ALWAYS fight for him.
So today is a holiday at our house because my husband is in the military. Unfortunately this also means that we get to get things done that we usually don't have time for like taking the car into the dealership. $1000 later....ugh....and many hours of him waiting....the car should be fixed. Always something, right?
I also want to address what today is. It is Martin Luther King Jr's Birthday.
(source wikipedia)
Martin Luther King, Jr. (January 15, 1929 – April 4, 1968) was an American clergyman, activist and prominent leader in the American civil rights movement. His main legacy was to secure progress on civil rights in the United States, and he has become a human rights icon: King is recognized as a martyr by two Christian churches.[1] A Baptist minister,[2] King became a civil rights activist early in his career. He led the 1955 Montgomery Bus Boycott and helped found the Southern Christian Leadership Conference in 1957, serving as its first president. King's efforts led to the 1963 March on Washington, where King delivered his "I Have a Dream" speech. There, he raised public consciousness of the civil rights movement and established himself as one of the greatest orators in U.S. history.
In 1964, King became the youngest person to receive the Nobel Peace Prize for his work to end racial segregation and racial discrimination through civil disobedience and other non-violent means. By the time of his death in 1968, he had refocused his efforts on ending poverty and opposing the Vietnam War, both from a religious perspective. King was assassinated on April 4, 1968, in Memphis, Tennessee. He was posthumously awarded the Presidential Medal of Freedom in 1977 and Congressional Gold Medal in 2004; Martin Luther King, Jr. Day was established as a U.S. national holiday in 1986.
I encourage everyone today to honor his legacy. Make a difference. Today is a day of service, prayer and thanks.
Love to all~
Deanna
It was a week ago that I found myself in the ER about this time. It still seems like it all was a bad dream. The realization is that life is short, I am blessed and really trusting your own instincts is key to early heart detection. My Father had a heart attack starting about 9 am in the morning but refused to go to the hospital until "after work". He passed away two weeks later after double valve replacement. I think perhaps this was in my mind during the event. I can't help but think my parents were there guiding me along the way. I have to be healthy and be HERE for my son. He fought for me, I will ALWAYS fight for him.
So today is a holiday at our house because my husband is in the military. Unfortunately this also means that we get to get things done that we usually don't have time for like taking the car into the dealership. $1000 later....ugh....and many hours of him waiting....the car should be fixed. Always something, right?
I also want to address what today is. It is Martin Luther King Jr's Birthday.
(source wikipedia)
Martin Luther King, Jr. (January 15, 1929 – April 4, 1968) was an American clergyman, activist and prominent leader in the American civil rights movement. His main legacy was to secure progress on civil rights in the United States, and he has become a human rights icon: King is recognized as a martyr by two Christian churches.[1] A Baptist minister,[2] King became a civil rights activist early in his career. He led the 1955 Montgomery Bus Boycott and helped found the Southern Christian Leadership Conference in 1957, serving as its first president. King's efforts led to the 1963 March on Washington, where King delivered his "I Have a Dream" speech. There, he raised public consciousness of the civil rights movement and established himself as one of the greatest orators in U.S. history.
In 1964, King became the youngest person to receive the Nobel Peace Prize for his work to end racial segregation and racial discrimination through civil disobedience and other non-violent means. By the time of his death in 1968, he had refocused his efforts on ending poverty and opposing the Vietnam War, both from a religious perspective. King was assassinated on April 4, 1968, in Memphis, Tennessee. He was posthumously awarded the Presidential Medal of Freedom in 1977 and Congressional Gold Medal in 2004; Martin Luther King, Jr. Day was established as a U.S. national holiday in 1986.
I encourage everyone today to honor his legacy. Make a difference. Today is a day of service, prayer and thanks.
Love to all~
Deanna
Sunday, January 17, 2010
I cried today and not because I am sad. It was a release for me and it felt good and scary. I just let myself go. It is hard when things come your way not to feel sorry for yourself. I have always said that it is wrong to judge someone unless you walk personally in someones shoes. For me today, I cried alone. As a Mom and wife that is what we usually do and that is ok. Because we are never alone as we are surrounded by love, God, Family and friends.
I am doing well. Home...healthy and happy.I have a stent in my heart and my groin is sore and not from anything good:) but I am good. I feel so blessed but it is ok if every once in a while I say or hope for enough! Here is to health, happiness and just a great 2010. I fear saying this as I did just 16 days ago also. I dare not challenge!
I would like to reiterate that I feel so blessed for my son Carter, my hero....my husband, Lois Lane, Amy Gregorio....Clay, Joey, Jules (both of you:) Jervaun and all the love that has come our way.
Both of my parents passed away in their 50's from heart disease. My story has begun over 25 years earlier. Trust your body, your instincts and NEVER let anyone make you feel stupid.
Life is precious
I am doing well. Home...healthy and happy.I have a stent in my heart and my groin is sore and not from anything good:) but I am good. I feel so blessed but it is ok if every once in a while I say or hope for enough! Here is to health, happiness and just a great 2010. I fear saying this as I did just 16 days ago also. I dare not challenge!
I would like to reiterate that I feel so blessed for my son Carter, my hero....my husband, Lois Lane, Amy Gregorio....Clay, Joey, Jules (both of you:) Jervaun and all the love that has come our way.
Both of my parents passed away in their 50's from heart disease. My story has begun over 25 years earlier. Trust your body, your instincts and NEVER let anyone make you feel stupid.
Life is precious
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
It is hard to say sometimes when the sun rises, just how your day will end up. Me, I personally like to start each day a little better and a little bit happier than the previous day. Some days, however somethings are just out of your control. First comes my disclaimer on any writing or grammar issues as I am on percocet. Don't worry, it has been prescribed:)I am in the hospital and it is 5am.
I woke up yesterday and started my day as the norm. Husband breakfast...check. Son up....check. My last antibiotic from my prescription...check. This in itself was an accomplishment considering I am not a fan of taking anything (even percocet:) but sometimes when feeling sick, you have too. I had been battling a cold/flu.
After swallowing the horse pill, I started to feel some discomfort in my chest. In my mind I went through the analogies. The pill is stuck in my throat, maybe it is anxiety or maybe it was all in my head. About 10 minutes later the pain had worsened and I found myself unable to pick up Carter.
911 and a million apologies for feeling stupid for requiring attention I found myself in the ER being told my cardiac enzymes where elevated and I in all likelihood had had a heart attack. So I had an angiographm and found out I had a blockage. Angioplasty was performed and a stent was placed. I had in fact had a heart attack.
Looking back on the past few days, a few things stand out. For one, when I came into the ER I was greeted by a rather rude nurse who assumed I probably just had a pulled muscle. I am young, healthy, not over weight, don't smoke and not diabetic. Why would I be having a heart attack? The doctors were great though and I can attribute much of that to having a lady doctor who took me seriously and did not make assumptions. Due to my family history alone, she decided to do a work up and not just send me home. They all were shocked. I was/am shocked. I still cannot believe I had a heart attack.
It is because of my family history and volunteering with Go Red and AHA that I was aware of "my" norm and when I should be concerned. That and my son. I remember just thinking I had to be there for him so I need to get this checked out. I felt stupid, silly, in pain and scared. Some initial assumptions made me feel stupid, silly and scared. Bottom line is I had a heart attack. I no longer feel stupid or silly but yes, I still feel scared. I am glad I listened to my body.
I woke up yesterday and started my day as the norm. Husband breakfast...check. Son up....check. My last antibiotic from my prescription...check. This in itself was an accomplishment considering I am not a fan of taking anything (even percocet:) but sometimes when feeling sick, you have too. I had been battling a cold/flu.
After swallowing the horse pill, I started to feel some discomfort in my chest. In my mind I went through the analogies. The pill is stuck in my throat, maybe it is anxiety or maybe it was all in my head. About 10 minutes later the pain had worsened and I found myself unable to pick up Carter.
911 and a million apologies for feeling stupid for requiring attention I found myself in the ER being told my cardiac enzymes where elevated and I in all likelihood had had a heart attack. So I had an angiographm and found out I had a blockage. Angioplasty was performed and a stent was placed. I had in fact had a heart attack.
Looking back on the past few days, a few things stand out. For one, when I came into the ER I was greeted by a rather rude nurse who assumed I probably just had a pulled muscle. I am young, healthy, not over weight, don't smoke and not diabetic. Why would I be having a heart attack? The doctors were great though and I can attribute much of that to having a lady doctor who took me seriously and did not make assumptions. Due to my family history alone, she decided to do a work up and not just send me home. They all were shocked. I was/am shocked. I still cannot believe I had a heart attack.
It is because of my family history and volunteering with Go Red and AHA that I was aware of "my" norm and when I should be concerned. That and my son. I remember just thinking I had to be there for him so I need to get this checked out. I felt stupid, silly, in pain and scared. Some initial assumptions made me feel stupid, silly and scared. Bottom line is I had a heart attack. I no longer feel stupid or silly but yes, I still feel scared. I am glad I listened to my body.
Friday, January 08, 2010
You know it is funny. The holidays come and go yet the lights and tree remain. Some are due diligent in getting everything down,labeled and carefully stored for next year, complete with an inventory list, no later that January 2. Myself, this is not the case. I did feel better as I arrived home last evening to find my neighbors with lights still up and a manager scene that looked like Santa personally landed on it; however, I realized that enough is enough. I am, keep in mind, the one who cries at all the demised trees along the side of the road. What did they do but give us joy for a month. Look what we did for them. Cast away like an old girlfriend or boyfriend to the side. No calls, no answers and even amongst all the fits of drinking and dialing we still ignore. Sad really. Which is why we do fake.
I grew up in Georgia then Florida so we switched from pine to palm and just planted them in the yard at New Years. What happened to those days?
Today my journey is to finish packing the ornaments. The tree remains lit in our bedroom and living but makes such a beautiful night light. My husband ran the lights so I can't be blamed if those aren't down yet, yet?
Anyone know what I can do with my un-carved pumpkin from Halloween that still is sitting on my porch? I think I have a problem. I love the holidays!
I may not fit into the redneck women song because I love Champagne and Victoria Secret but I will happily sit on my porch next to my pumpkin and lights darning both. While drinking champagne of course.....
I grew up in Georgia then Florida so we switched from pine to palm and just planted them in the yard at New Years. What happened to those days?
Today my journey is to finish packing the ornaments. The tree remains lit in our bedroom and living but makes such a beautiful night light. My husband ran the lights so I can't be blamed if those aren't down yet, yet?
Anyone know what I can do with my un-carved pumpkin from Halloween that still is sitting on my porch? I think I have a problem. I love the holidays!
I may not fit into the redneck women song because I love Champagne and Victoria Secret but I will happily sit on my porch next to my pumpkin and lights darning both. While drinking champagne of course.....
Tuesday, January 05, 2010
I cannot believe 2010 has arrived. It is hard to believe that one year ago I was still in the hospital and Carter's journey had just begun after being born at 23.4 weeks gestation. I am filled with so many emotions of the past but perhaps the biggest thing I should learn is to move forward, learn, grow and let the bad just go.
We had a great Carter birthday week with Carter experiencing his first cake and taste of the frosting with that amazing little smile on his face. I am sure he was thinking, "hey Mom, this isn't green beans!" Ahhh, life begins and so does the journey that will one day lead me into a McDonalds where I can order a milkshake for my son and really mean it was/is for my son:)
Today I had the pleasure of facing my New Years resolution one on one. See, I vowed to cleanse and be healthy. Working out, no alcohol (maybe a glass on Friday:)and a general cleanse. I did so under the premise of MY SCALE. It all seemed so easy and then BAM...I got the flu. Now this can be good for weight loss although I don't recommend it; however, I had to face the scale at the doctors office. You know, the REAL ONE. So I faced my demon and promptly came home and started a weight loss/food tracker. I guess I should not have eaten that pizza over New Years or the bottle of champagne. Hooohum....the journey begins.
All this time I just thought the dry cleaners was shrinking my pants.
Starting weight: cough...hack...spit
Goal Weight: 90% of my wardrobe in my closet minus those really comfy sweats!
We had a great Carter birthday week with Carter experiencing his first cake and taste of the frosting with that amazing little smile on his face. I am sure he was thinking, "hey Mom, this isn't green beans!" Ahhh, life begins and so does the journey that will one day lead me into a McDonalds where I can order a milkshake for my son and really mean it was/is for my son:)
Today I had the pleasure of facing my New Years resolution one on one. See, I vowed to cleanse and be healthy. Working out, no alcohol (maybe a glass on Friday:)and a general cleanse. I did so under the premise of MY SCALE. It all seemed so easy and then BAM...I got the flu. Now this can be good for weight loss although I don't recommend it; however, I had to face the scale at the doctors office. You know, the REAL ONE. So I faced my demon and promptly came home and started a weight loss/food tracker. I guess I should not have eaten that pizza over New Years or the bottle of champagne. Hooohum....the journey begins.
All this time I just thought the dry cleaners was shrinking my pants.
Starting weight: cough...hack...spit
Goal Weight: 90% of my wardrobe in my closet minus those really comfy sweats!
Monday, December 28, 2009
Well the holiday season is almost over for the year. I am very excited for the new year as 2009 really wasn't my best. I have the amazing blessing of my son but as a whole, it had some very stressful moments. As the year draws to an end, my cat decided to use my coat as a litter box while we where driving back from PA. Yes, we allow all of our animals to run free in the car which makes for some interesting looks and now interesting and very smelly stories.
So this brings me to the thoughts of my New Years resolutions. I am unsure why I make them (or most of us do) but it does at least give us a temporary to do list before it all falls to the waist side. Me, I want health for my family, happiness, weight loss (don't we all) and a drama free year. I will take any good drama but considering my luck at winning lottery tickets, probably not happening!
So here's to a healthy, happiness and prosperous New Year. Bring on 2010!
So this brings me to the thoughts of my New Years resolutions. I am unsure why I make them (or most of us do) but it does at least give us a temporary to do list before it all falls to the waist side. Me, I want health for my family, happiness, weight loss (don't we all) and a drama free year. I will take any good drama but considering my luck at winning lottery tickets, probably not happening!
So here's to a healthy, happiness and prosperous New Year. Bring on 2010!
Saturday, December 19, 2009

Dear Friend,
Imagine for a moment that you're far away from your family and friends. You might know when you will be home again, but that date is so distant it's hard to imagine. You're cold and lonely and really miss the simple things -- like talking to your kids on the phone.
That's what it is like for troops in Afghanistan and Iraq.
But you can make it possible for them to call home and hear the sound of their daughter's voice, or listen to their son's excited recap of a basketball game.
Our troops sacrifice so much for the rest of us. Today, you can show your appreciation in a very real way.
Donate $25 or more now to support Operation Phone Home and give troops the chance to make a call to their loved ones over the holidays.
https://www.uso.org/donate/custom.aspx?id=1709&
Operation Phone Home is a vital part of the USO's At Home In Our Hearts holiday campaign. With your help, we can distribute thousands of pre-paid telephone cards to service men and women stationed overseas.
We must get thousands of phone cards into the hands of these men and women. Can we count on you to embrace one of those troops right now?
Support Operation Phone Home by making a donation of $25 or more to help troops talk to their loved ones this holiday season.
Our partnership with AT&T makes it possible for us to buy phone cards at a deep discount. That means your contribution goes further and provides more talk time on each card we distribute.
Nothing can take the place of being home for the holidays, but when duty calls, our troops answer without hesitation.
Your contribution to this appeal will help to ensure that troops serving in lonely outposts over the holidays are At Home In Our Hearts.
https://www.uso.org/donate/custom.aspx?id=1709&
Sincerely,
Sloan Gibson
President and CEO, USO
Wednesday, December 16, 2009

What is it with 2009? After getting Carter out of the hospital for the holidays, Daddy ended up In the ER last night with a high temp and stomach issues. He has the flu. Because of Carter, we have to be especially over cautious in getting sick. We both received the H1N1 vaccine this week and ironically, he got sick:( I am just praying for a wonderful 2010 full of good health and happiness.
So here is my latest household discovery. Spray and Wash. Yes, the normal spray and wash we use for laundry. We have two dogs, a cat, a baby and carpet. The combination of all of these just screams carpet stains. I am always cleaning up something and after spending the week in the hospital with Carter, a lot of puppy stains appeared. Yesterday I was on a mission. I hate dirty floors so I whipped out the Resolve carpet cleaner, put on my stylish yellow rubber gloves and went to work. I wasn't having a lot of luck with the Resolve and some stains were just so identifiable that I had no idea how to get them up. Suddenly I had a flash back of a few months ago when a glass of red wine was spilt on our carpet. I was in a pinch and decided to try spray in wash in the absence of any carpet cleaner. Poof, wine stains gone! GONE!
So I tried this same strategy yesterday and it worked! The key is to saturate the stain and wash with warm water. Yes, the carpet is damp for a bit but the stains are gone. ALL OF THEM. This stuff takes up EVERYTHING!
On another note, I am walking again for Carter and the March of Dimes. The walk is in April and my goal is to raise $1000. The team is NNMF inspired as they took amazing care of Carter in the NICU and the doctors and nurses at National Naval Medical Center and Walter Reed inspire me and saved Carters life. Any donation is appreciated and if you can walk with me....even better! Carters first birthday is January 2, 2010. This walk is for him.
log onto : http://www.marchforbabies.org/Deannamlinz
Off to nurse Daddy and son.....my countdown to 2010 has begun!
Thursday, December 03, 2009
I cannot believe the holidays are here. Time flies so quickly. My biggest pet peeve is the fact that it gets dark so early! I loved living in Germany where it was actually light at 10pm. Can anyone say Alaska:)
Carter was admitted to Walter Reed this week due to dehydration and flu like symptoms. He was unable to keep food down. They did a head ultrasound and then CT to realize his ventricles had enlarged and the fluid may be putting pressure on his brain. We had the conversation in regards to putting a shunt in. This scares the heck out of me as you could imagine. Many children and adults can thrive with a shunt but brain surgery was not exactly a level of comfort that can be found in most people. Certainly not in me...the Mom. I came home on Tuesday to shower and just sat in my closet and cried. I can't help but question what did I do to cause this? No matter what anyone says, the blame falls on the Mom. It is the way the in laws look at you or some doctors as they as, "Do they know why he was born so early?". Truth is, no one really knows without an obvious cause. I am young (sort of:))), healthy and our lifestyle is a healthy one minus the occasional over indulgence of peanut M&M's.
Carter came home today after a battle with a flu virus and we still will continue to follow him through Neuro, Gastro, Optha, Pulmo (all followed by ology) and Pediatrics.
Thank you from Carter, Andy & I for all of the prayers. It was a rough week but Carter seems to be back to his baseline and smiling at me a lot. He has the best smiles.....
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
I want to be on Ellen day 1 :)
Happy day before Thanksgiving! I can't help but to be so thankful for our son, our health, my family and friends. Also thank you to all who serve in our US Military Forces. Every year Andy and I try and give back but truly they give to us. I am and will always be a proud Army wife. Andy and I's Thanksgiving over the years have been in Germany where the Turkey didn't fit on the oven but we shared the half frozen one with great friends, in Paris and him in Iraq and the following year just getting back from Iraq. It is a very special time for us.
I have been packing for Thanksgiving with the in laws and so happy to report that after not drying my jeans after I washed them they still fit!!!! Yahoo....Ok, so this is just my arrival out. Thanksgiving is more formal, they wear dark wash in Meadville.:)))I actually packed 5 pair of black pants because lets face it, there are so many contributing factors as to how something may fit. Then I packed the back up dress, tights and boots in case nothing was to my liking. (and my husband wonders why we have three suitcases for 4 days plus two extras for shoes and toiletry's:))) Is it really so wrong to wear heels in snow? Florida girl.....
My main objective is to avoid anything I can actually enjoy tomorrow. So no sides, ugh.... Sides are the best. My Mom was a Georgia peach so we have always been traditional. Green bean salad, deviled eggs, turkey, stuffing (the normal kind) and some sort of potato. I personally do not understand why someone takes a perfectly good sweet potato and covers it in marshmallow's and coconut. On an average people gain 6 pounds between Thanksgiving and New Years. What to do!!!! Maybe I will down a turkey leg while on the treadmill!
Still job hunting, life searching and feeling so blessed for my son. On Thanksgiving, this is what is most important.
So Happy Thanksgiving to all! Hug your family, friends and a stranger (but don't get arrested doing it:)
Much love from the Linz family~
Happy day before Thanksgiving! I can't help but to be so thankful for our son, our health, my family and friends. Also thank you to all who serve in our US Military Forces. Every year Andy and I try and give back but truly they give to us. I am and will always be a proud Army wife. Andy and I's Thanksgiving over the years have been in Germany where the Turkey didn't fit on the oven but we shared the half frozen one with great friends, in Paris and him in Iraq and the following year just getting back from Iraq. It is a very special time for us.
I have been packing for Thanksgiving with the in laws and so happy to report that after not drying my jeans after I washed them they still fit!!!! Yahoo....Ok, so this is just my arrival out. Thanksgiving is more formal, they wear dark wash in Meadville.:)))I actually packed 5 pair of black pants because lets face it, there are so many contributing factors as to how something may fit. Then I packed the back up dress, tights and boots in case nothing was to my liking. (and my husband wonders why we have three suitcases for 4 days plus two extras for shoes and toiletry's:))) Is it really so wrong to wear heels in snow? Florida girl.....
My main objective is to avoid anything I can actually enjoy tomorrow. So no sides, ugh.... Sides are the best. My Mom was a Georgia peach so we have always been traditional. Green bean salad, deviled eggs, turkey, stuffing (the normal kind) and some sort of potato. I personally do not understand why someone takes a perfectly good sweet potato and covers it in marshmallow's and coconut. On an average people gain 6 pounds between Thanksgiving and New Years. What to do!!!! Maybe I will down a turkey leg while on the treadmill!
Still job hunting, life searching and feeling so blessed for my son. On Thanksgiving, this is what is most important.
So Happy Thanksgiving to all! Hug your family, friends and a stranger (but don't get arrested doing it:)
Much love from the Linz family~
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Life is funny. There are ups and downs and so many days the downs seem to weigh heavy. I have taken the week to relax, take a break in my home state and reflect on the year. I cannot believe that Christmas is just around the corner. Wow, time flies. Carters birthday is January 2 and we will celebrate with great joy and no doubt a few tears. I cry at everything these days. Throw a good Charmin commercial my way and I am down for the count:)
I have been noticing an interesting trend. It is the debate on proper and when the sins of the past, or last weekend are redeemed. I say this because of the whole Carrie Prejaan debate and her poor choice of verbiage in her media tour. Whomever is her publicist needs to be fired. Seriously, she is doing more harm than good and it is hard to think of her as a victim with her attitude. Now I am FARRRRRRR from perfect. I have never sexted (who wants to see that and frankly I have a hard enough time covering things fully clothed. Naked...ahh...NO......)however; like everyone I have sinned. I guess it is the definition that always throws me. You have those who can quote the bible yet are hypocrites. You have those that are of a different religion or sexual preference who are the kindest people you have ever know yet we judge based on what is in a book and not what is in our soul.
Why can we not sit in judgement but in acceptance and love?
Clearly I need to back away from the yoga mat! Just feeling zen I guess:))
I have been noticing an interesting trend. It is the debate on proper and when the sins of the past, or last weekend are redeemed. I say this because of the whole Carrie Prejaan debate and her poor choice of verbiage in her media tour. Whomever is her publicist needs to be fired. Seriously, she is doing more harm than good and it is hard to think of her as a victim with her attitude. Now I am FARRRRRRR from perfect. I have never sexted (who wants to see that and frankly I have a hard enough time covering things fully clothed. Naked...ahh...NO......)however; like everyone I have sinned. I guess it is the definition that always throws me. You have those who can quote the bible yet are hypocrites. You have those that are of a different religion or sexual preference who are the kindest people you have ever know yet we judge based on what is in a book and not what is in our soul.
Why can we not sit in judgement but in acceptance and love?
Clearly I need to back away from the yoga mat! Just feeling zen I guess:))
Monday, November 16, 2009
900 miles and I arrived in Florida. Many asked why I drove but lets face it, with Carter being on oxygen, most airlines don't welcome that in travel. Not to mention, I have 14 with me and a portable condenser....can you imagine the baggage charge?:)
It is great to be around family, friends and WARMTH! I think we skipped summer in Maryland as it went by so quickly.
Time with my Brother, Lois Lane and Benjamin always makes me smile. Lois Lane got her first haircut since her hair grew out from chemo and she looks stunning. We also managed to go through old photos and it was fun to see my various haircuts, ex-boyfriends and my parents whom I still miss daily. Who would have thought that I actually looked OK in the Demi Moore do! Hating my hair these days...what to do...what to do. When you get married your hair is no longer your own. Guys have opinions....very strong ones!!!!!
OK so this brings me to a debate/thought. My Brother is a VERY devote Southern Baptist. He teaches, preaches and is very knowledgeable in regards to his denomination. I appreciate his passion and open to conversation and debate. I am NOT Southern Baptist,I support Gay marriage and the belief that as long as you are convicted to your God, I have no right to judge as long as you respect and honor life and love. I see grey perhaps. I may not believe in everything about every religion but I can't help but think that who is to say we all don't stand in front of the same God. Our roads were just different in getting there. To me, God does not pass judgement or love us less because we make mistakes. We are human and we will make mistakes. It is what you take from those mistakes that is the lesson.
Now on to politics....I feel so Palinized :)))))
It is great to be around family, friends and WARMTH! I think we skipped summer in Maryland as it went by so quickly.
Time with my Brother, Lois Lane and Benjamin always makes me smile. Lois Lane got her first haircut since her hair grew out from chemo and she looks stunning. We also managed to go through old photos and it was fun to see my various haircuts, ex-boyfriends and my parents whom I still miss daily. Who would have thought that I actually looked OK in the Demi Moore do! Hating my hair these days...what to do...what to do. When you get married your hair is no longer your own. Guys have opinions....very strong ones!!!!!
OK so this brings me to a debate/thought. My Brother is a VERY devote Southern Baptist. He teaches, preaches and is very knowledgeable in regards to his denomination. I appreciate his passion and open to conversation and debate. I am NOT Southern Baptist,I support Gay marriage and the belief that as long as you are convicted to your God, I have no right to judge as long as you respect and honor life and love. I see grey perhaps. I may not believe in everything about every religion but I can't help but think that who is to say we all don't stand in front of the same God. Our roads were just different in getting there. To me, God does not pass judgement or love us less because we make mistakes. We are human and we will make mistakes. It is what you take from those mistakes that is the lesson.
Now on to politics....I feel so Palinized :)))))
Sunday, November 08, 2009
Is it really almost Christmas?
I swear I thought last Saturday was Halloween yet I must have been confused as my local shopping mart is already garnished in tinsel and lights. I have to admit though I do love the holiday season. Its more about the what if. It is a happy time although I will admit drowning in commercialism. There is an appeal about the twinkle of lights that beyond all redneck scenarios is one that I would invite all year long if I could get away with it.
This brings me to my latest obsession. Ok maybe not latest but shoes that claim to make you fit. I saw a commercial for reebok today promising what sketchers do. I guess if I walk on a ball everyday of my life I will become centered, balanced and fit. I can't help but think that this all reminds me of the time I stepped on a bee in Georgia. The center of my foot swelled up like Texas.
If I had only know that was the answer to all of my fitness goals. Find two bees to balance it out of course and be fit for life....
Eppy pin anyone?
I swear I thought last Saturday was Halloween yet I must have been confused as my local shopping mart is already garnished in tinsel and lights. I have to admit though I do love the holiday season. Its more about the what if. It is a happy time although I will admit drowning in commercialism. There is an appeal about the twinkle of lights that beyond all redneck scenarios is one that I would invite all year long if I could get away with it.
This brings me to my latest obsession. Ok maybe not latest but shoes that claim to make you fit. I saw a commercial for reebok today promising what sketchers do. I guess if I walk on a ball everyday of my life I will become centered, balanced and fit. I can't help but think that this all reminds me of the time I stepped on a bee in Georgia. The center of my foot swelled up like Texas.
If I had only know that was the answer to all of my fitness goals. Find two bees to balance it out of course and be fit for life....
Eppy pin anyone?
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
Favorite quote of the day.....
When you make average GREAT, you can make your dreams a reality.
Thank you Oprah and Suzie Ormond
When you make average GREAT, you can make your dreams a reality.
Thank you Oprah and Suzie Ormond
Knees and necks
Today, like many days was one filled with the pondering realization that hey...THIS IS MY LIFE! Here it is, the reality. We had family photos on Saturday. It was Halloween and yet STILL we had not carved the pumpkin but the family all had new costumes. Halo, a mermaid, Jack was Tina Turner, Josie a Jester and Carter..the cutest Monkey you have ever seen. Andy and I just survived as I ate far to many Reese's cups and found myself giving away candy by the bagful to avoid the existence of any morsel in our house.
Fast forward to Tuesday. Pumpkin still not carved( I see a pumpkin pie in our future) and I noticed a few new rings around certain parts of my body. Rings you ask...yes. Rings. See in my effort to look TAN I painted my neck on Halloween. I guess in all of my speedy shower endeavors I wasn't scrubbing the neck area as I should. I was horrified as I thought I would be sporting scarfs for the rest of my life but after some exfoliation of the dried baby formula mixed with body paint was gone, there were no rings ...thank goodness!I hope to never be the women/Shitzu that when we get older our hair just gets bigger and we resemble our pets.
This brings me to one other concern. What is up with the knees?
Today, like many days was one filled with the pondering realization that hey...THIS IS MY LIFE! Here it is, the reality. We had family photos on Saturday. It was Halloween and yet STILL we had not carved the pumpkin but the family all had new costumes. Halo, a mermaid, Jack was Tina Turner, Josie a Jester and Carter..the cutest Monkey you have ever seen. Andy and I just survived as I ate far to many Reese's cups and found myself giving away candy by the bagful to avoid the existence of any morsel in our house.
Fast forward to Tuesday. Pumpkin still not carved( I see a pumpkin pie in our future) and I noticed a few new rings around certain parts of my body. Rings you ask...yes. Rings. See in my effort to look TAN I painted my neck on Halloween. I guess in all of my speedy shower endeavors I wasn't scrubbing the neck area as I should. I was horrified as I thought I would be sporting scarfs for the rest of my life but after some exfoliation of the dried baby formula mixed with body paint was gone, there were no rings ...thank goodness!I hope to never be the women/Shitzu that when we get older our hair just gets bigger and we resemble our pets.
This brings me to one other concern. What is up with the knees?
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Aren't we all damaged goods?
I have spent my life wondering, hoping and dreaming. My Dad always said if you give up your dreams you die. Amongst all of the childhood dreams and adult hopes I can't help but wonder, aren't we all damaged goods? We strive and dream but how do you make that a reality in an engine that is already set for premium gas?
I am a singer, not the best, not the worst....a writer (see the aforementioned), a Mother, wife. sister and daughter even though they are no longer with us. I have heard...too fat, too skinny, too pale, fix your smile, you must be sad, you fought with your husband, omg....and the list goes on. But in retrospect, aren't we all damaged goods?
We start out life with a clean slate and some like my son have fought daily. However, once life greets you, you just seem to take what others say as a testament as to who you are. Why do we do this?
We give that right to people that we don't know, strangers when in fact that right is OURS and only OURS. No one defines you. You define you and that definition will never be found in websters.
Why, because we are ALL one of a kind. Your God/my God blessed us with that quality.
You have 5 seconds from success and 5 from failure. The choice is always yours.
PS- on a side note, another employee from my ex company was let go but this time via phone call. Altleast I know it wasn't just me or "pageantry".
I have spent my life wondering, hoping and dreaming. My Dad always said if you give up your dreams you die. Amongst all of the childhood dreams and adult hopes I can't help but wonder, aren't we all damaged goods? We strive and dream but how do you make that a reality in an engine that is already set for premium gas?
I am a singer, not the best, not the worst....a writer (see the aforementioned), a Mother, wife. sister and daughter even though they are no longer with us. I have heard...too fat, too skinny, too pale, fix your smile, you must be sad, you fought with your husband, omg....and the list goes on. But in retrospect, aren't we all damaged goods?
We start out life with a clean slate and some like my son have fought daily. However, once life greets you, you just seem to take what others say as a testament as to who you are. Why do we do this?
We give that right to people that we don't know, strangers when in fact that right is OURS and only OURS. No one defines you. You define you and that definition will never be found in websters.
Why, because we are ALL one of a kind. Your God/my God blessed us with that quality.
You have 5 seconds from success and 5 from failure. The choice is always yours.
PS- on a side note, another employee from my ex company was let go but this time via phone call. Altleast I know it wasn't just me or "pageantry".
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
So we found them, Carters glasses. He actually picked them out himself as when I was trying frames on him he had no problem telling me what he liked and didn't like. Ok so he got his lungs from me:)))) Minus the obvious tags, his Mini Pearl look, these are the winners. They should be in soon and he world will continue to expand. What a blessing. (His ROP surgery went well so he can see; however, he is still nearsighted.)
Onto my fright of the day. What the heck, a plane over shot landing by 150 miles because EVERYONE in the cockpit was using their personal computer???????What???? Are you kidding? If you cannot text while driving, what makes them think that being on your personal computer for 80 MINUTES while FLYING is acceptable???? I question what they were looking at that was so distracting....hum.....
As I sit here in the dim light writing this, I am left to wonder about the world we live in. It saddens and frightens me about continued deployments to Afghanistan and the reasoning behind it. Andy has deployed 5 times with two being to Iraq and yet it may still continue. Deployment is so hard on families. Pre-deployment involves training which is also time away. Andy was gone a few months back for training and whether it is to the next state or another country, gone is gone...especially if you have children. I am so proud of those who serve and have served and yet I feel remorse for the lack of awareness that is out there for the military and their families.
Andy was in Dover not just the one day but went back the next as well. Three more lives lost and returned back stateside yet nothing is shown on the news. Sure we hear about the helicopters crashing and 14 being killed but they are owed the honor of using their names, recognizing their families and the heroism of each one of them. I know the media is not allowed to cover the return of the remains but if they did, reality might hit as to a world that exist outside the vision that the government wants us to see.
Andy was in Dover not just the one day but went back the next as well. Three more lives lost and returned back stateside yet nothing is shown on the news. Sure we hear about the helicopters crashing and 14 being killed but they are owed the honor of using their names, recognizing their families and the heroism of each one of them. I know the media is not allowed to cover the return of the remains but if they did, reality might hit as to a world that exist outside the vision that the government wants us to see.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
There is a world out there that is beyond the realms of what we see on the news, hear in passing or on the cover of a magazine or newspaper. At least not anymore. We/I get caught up in the day to day activities of life without taking into account why I am able to think about mundane activities or about why "I" am having a bad year.
Tomorrow my husband is going to serve as an escort to a General as he welcomes back to the states a 26 year old soldier, a Father and a husband. He will meet his family and will know about his service. He will know he was a great man who served this country unselfishly. He will welcome him back to the states with honor and pride.
He will not be able to shake the hand of the great man, the hero, the Father, the Husband, the Brother, the son for his remains will be draped in the American flag.
The next time I think I am having a bad day, or want to complain or feel sorry for myself, I will remind myself of what a bad day or year it actually is.
Please pray for all who serve and for the family that will welcome the remains of this great hero to our country who lost his life this week serving our country.
Tomorrow my husband is going to serve as an escort to a General as he welcomes back to the states a 26 year old soldier, a Father and a husband. He will meet his family and will know about his service. He will know he was a great man who served this country unselfishly. He will welcome him back to the states with honor and pride.
He will not be able to shake the hand of the great man, the hero, the Father, the Husband, the Brother, the son for his remains will be draped in the American flag.
The next time I think I am having a bad day, or want to complain or feel sorry for myself, I will remind myself of what a bad day or year it actually is.
Please pray for all who serve and for the family that will welcome the remains of this great hero to our country who lost his life this week serving our country.
Monday, October 19, 2009
So my in laws just left and I am staring at the treadmill. Once I remove the coats, I shall get back to working out. Its amazing how long Thursday to Monday can be when you don't work out. Getting back on the wagon is a tough call when it works so nicely as a hanger:))))
I have a pondering, frustrating question....where are all the cute boy's clothes? Because winter decided to expose itself early, I am suddenly faced with the challenge of finding a winter coat for Carter. Instead, I ventured out to find that in one aspect of the world women (or girls) dominate. There are so many cute girl clothes and a plethora of the one's on sale yet NOTHING for little boys. So I am left with the search. Thank goodness for the Internet. Who would have guessed that in a male dominated world that women finally rule in one aspect, clothes...well I guess I already knew that:)
This brings me another clothes issue. Be it that my life is in lounge wear these days, I have of course found my favorites. I never knew there were so many choices and so many different levels of the , "hey, I got out of my pajamas today and put on clothes that look just like my pajamas but in solid colors" options. I can go to the store, workout and sleep all without ever changing!!!!
I love the Victoria Secret Velour's. Not the pink because I am over 21 and after having a baby the letters PINK in bold letters written across my backside well it just does not appeal to me. I thought I found the perfect collection then the ultimate betrayal happens. Case in point. You buy the perfect grey pair. They fit well, look respectable and have the correct size written in them. aka...the "perfect pair". So obsession hits and you return to buy yet another. This time in black because lets face it, black in anything is always good. So you run home to put on the perfect pair. Same size, same store just in black. So you rip off the tag and shove it in the side of the garbage basket so your husband does not know. Excitement builds and you start to slip them on. Then ...tada....they are smaller that then previous pair that you purchased from the same store and they are the same style. I am now left with a pair of too small pants that I am still wearing out of sheer determination because I could not return them. Why does this happen? Ugh....I have come to learn that the more expensive the designer the smaller size I can wear. (this is a justification for inflated prices that encourages women to buy and does not apply to most pageant wear); however, consistency from the mainstreams should be mandated by quality assurance. The only exclusion...jeans and swimsuits. They should always run big so I can feel small.
I have a pondering, frustrating question....where are all the cute boy's clothes? Because winter decided to expose itself early, I am suddenly faced with the challenge of finding a winter coat for Carter. Instead, I ventured out to find that in one aspect of the world women (or girls) dominate. There are so many cute girl clothes and a plethora of the one's on sale yet NOTHING for little boys. So I am left with the search. Thank goodness for the Internet. Who would have guessed that in a male dominated world that women finally rule in one aspect, clothes...well I guess I already knew that:)
This brings me another clothes issue. Be it that my life is in lounge wear these days, I have of course found my favorites. I never knew there were so many choices and so many different levels of the , "hey, I got out of my pajamas today and put on clothes that look just like my pajamas but in solid colors" options. I can go to the store, workout and sleep all without ever changing!!!!
I love the Victoria Secret Velour's. Not the pink because I am over 21 and after having a baby the letters PINK in bold letters written across my backside well it just does not appeal to me. I thought I found the perfect collection then the ultimate betrayal happens. Case in point. You buy the perfect grey pair. They fit well, look respectable and have the correct size written in them. aka...the "perfect pair". So obsession hits and you return to buy yet another. This time in black because lets face it, black in anything is always good. So you run home to put on the perfect pair. Same size, same store just in black. So you rip off the tag and shove it in the side of the garbage basket so your husband does not know. Excitement builds and you start to slip them on. Then ...tada....they are smaller that then previous pair that you purchased from the same store and they are the same style. I am now left with a pair of too small pants that I am still wearing out of sheer determination because I could not return them. Why does this happen? Ugh....I have come to learn that the more expensive the designer the smaller size I can wear. (this is a justification for inflated prices that encourages women to buy and does not apply to most pageant wear); however, consistency from the mainstreams should be mandated by quality assurance. The only exclusion...jeans and swimsuits. They should always run big so I can feel small.
Friends and Family,
It is that time of year to reach out and thank our brave men and women serving our country in foreign countries. Tennessee Marine Family, an organization that I founded in 2004, is having our Christmas Package Drive. We need your help collecting items and we would love to have you come out and help pack the boxes with us on November 21st. It will warm your heart!!
TENNESEE MARINE FAMILY
HOLIDAY CARE PACKAGE DRIVE 2009 – GROCERY LIST
www.tnmarinefamily.org
HERE ARE ITEMS THAT HAVE BEEN REQUESTED:
Tea Bags & Hot Chocolate
Christmas Stockings – regular size
Slim Jims/ Beef Jerky
Crackers and Easy Cheese
Kraft Easy Mac
Instant Soups (in container)
Pouches of Tuna/Chicken
Spices (onion powder, garlic powder) NOT large sizes
White Athletic Socks
Chapstick / Lip Balm
Small Packs of Baby Wipes
Foot Powder
Disposable Cameras
Sunflower Seeds
Canned Spaghetti / Ravioli
Vienna Sausages (NO PORK)
CD’s, DVD’s
Travel Sized Hand Sanitizers
Inexpensive Hand Held Video Games
Eye Drops
Pre Paid Phone Cards
AA Batteries
Hand Warmers
WE ALSO INCLUDE CARDS, LETTERS AND DRAWINGS FROM CHILDREN AND ADULTS. THIS PERSONAL TOUCH IS A FAVORITE WITH THE TROOPS! THIS IS A WONDERFUL WAY FOR YOUR GROUP, CHILDREN OR ORGANIZATION TO SUPPORT OUR TROOPS!!
IF YOU ARE NOT NEARBY AND WOULD LIKE TO DONATE FUNDS TO HELP DEFRAY THE COSTS OF POSTAGE YOU CAN DO SO ONLINE VIA PAYPAL, OR DONATIONS MAY ALSO BE MAILED DIRECTLY TO:
Tennessee Marine Family
PO Box 291021
Nashville, Tennessee 37229-1021
Tennessee Marine Family is 501 (c) (3) under the Internal Revenue Code. All donations are tax deductible.
THANK YOU FOR SUPPORTING OUR TROOPS!
Semper Fidelis
The package drive is:
Saturday, November 21
Lunch at Noon - Packing the Boxes Begins After Lunch
LOCATION:
South Gate Baptist Church
3654 Murfreesboro Road
Antioch, TN 37013
Please go to the TMF Events Website at www.tnmarinefamilyevents.org for additional information.
Thanking you in advance for your support!!
Donna Clemons
Proud Mom of Sgt. Zach Ross - Currently on his 5th Tour of Duty
Proud MIL of Sgt. Tram Ross - Served 3 Tours of Duty and Home Now with My Awesome Grandson!!
It is that time of year to reach out and thank our brave men and women serving our country in foreign countries. Tennessee Marine Family, an organization that I founded in 2004, is having our Christmas Package Drive. We need your help collecting items and we would love to have you come out and help pack the boxes with us on November 21st. It will warm your heart!!
TENNESEE MARINE FAMILY
HOLIDAY CARE PACKAGE DRIVE 2009 – GROCERY LIST
www.tnmarinefamily.org
HERE ARE ITEMS THAT HAVE BEEN REQUESTED:
Tea Bags & Hot Chocolate
Christmas Stockings – regular size
Slim Jims/ Beef Jerky
Crackers and Easy Cheese
Kraft Easy Mac
Instant Soups (in container)
Pouches of Tuna/Chicken
Spices (onion powder, garlic powder) NOT large sizes
White Athletic Socks
Chapstick / Lip Balm
Small Packs of Baby Wipes
Foot Powder
Disposable Cameras
Sunflower Seeds
Canned Spaghetti / Ravioli
Vienna Sausages (NO PORK)
CD’s, DVD’s
Travel Sized Hand Sanitizers
Inexpensive Hand Held Video Games
Eye Drops
Pre Paid Phone Cards
AA Batteries
Hand Warmers
WE ALSO INCLUDE CARDS, LETTERS AND DRAWINGS FROM CHILDREN AND ADULTS. THIS PERSONAL TOUCH IS A FAVORITE WITH THE TROOPS! THIS IS A WONDERFUL WAY FOR YOUR GROUP, CHILDREN OR ORGANIZATION TO SUPPORT OUR TROOPS!!
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THANK YOU FOR SUPPORTING OUR TROOPS!
Semper Fidelis
The package drive is:
Saturday, November 21
Lunch at Noon - Packing the Boxes Begins After Lunch
LOCATION:
South Gate Baptist Church
3654 Murfreesboro Road
Antioch, TN 37013
Please go to the TMF Events Website at www.tnmarinefamilyevents.org for additional information.
Thanking you in advance for your support!!
Donna Clemons
Proud Mom of Sgt. Zach Ross - Currently on his 5th Tour of Duty
Proud MIL of Sgt. Tram Ross - Served 3 Tours of Duty and Home Now with My Awesome Grandson!!
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Based on my year you can imagine my utter excitement when someone from the MD/V/DC area won the lottery. I thought to my self, this must be it! Finally a break. Well not so and instead a weekend with my Mother in Law. My year continues.....
So after sending out numerous resumes and still in utter shock of how some can treat you, I have come to realize among all of my grammatical errors that life goes on and my situation is not one to dwell over. It is life, right?
On a lighter note, Carter is doing well and dressed in his Steelers outfit. These days with the BUCS doing so poorly, I will give it to my husband. We are trying to find solo bini glasses for Carter (not covered by insurance of course) but I am sure Carter will be so cute in them. As I said before, Harry Potter sports them well!!!!!!!!!! So Carter will be styling!!!!!!
Tomorrow is Monday and the start of a new week. I keep having flashbacks of last week and questioning how do you beat a corporation that changed my job when I got pregnant and used charity (which is what pageantry is about) as a reason for termination. Although funny thing is ...NEVER mentioned that when letting me go but just I needed to find child care as a reason but hey...I am starting a new week. They will probably win. I am home with a disabled child who wanted to come back to work and my husband is active duty and yet my old boss got promoted. Who am I to argue.
I need to move on. They won the battle.
So after sending out numerous resumes and still in utter shock of how some can treat you, I have come to realize among all of my grammatical errors that life goes on and my situation is not one to dwell over. It is life, right?
On a lighter note, Carter is doing well and dressed in his Steelers outfit. These days with the BUCS doing so poorly, I will give it to my husband. We are trying to find solo bini glasses for Carter (not covered by insurance of course) but I am sure Carter will be so cute in them. As I said before, Harry Potter sports them well!!!!!!!!!! So Carter will be styling!!!!!!
Tomorrow is Monday and the start of a new week. I keep having flashbacks of last week and questioning how do you beat a corporation that changed my job when I got pregnant and used charity (which is what pageantry is about) as a reason for termination. Although funny thing is ...NEVER mentioned that when letting me go but just I needed to find child care as a reason but hey...I am starting a new week. They will probably win. I am home with a disabled child who wanted to come back to work and my husband is active duty and yet my old boss got promoted. Who am I to argue.
I need to move on. They won the battle.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
I come with a D battery
The one thing you really never read about before children is that EVERYTHING and I mean EVERYTHING comes with a battery. Much like a great conspiracy theory, not just one battery but MANY and not all the same type. Whether it is the bouncy, the swing, the play mate it is a battery free for all!!!!Mental note to self, if you ever have another child...REGISTER FOR BATTERIES and a lifetime supply if possible!
So Andy is at Nascar with his buddies and I am with my Mother in law for the weekend. I will leave it at that as it has been just a horrible week and has ended as such. I am in hopes that the sun will shine tomorrow and I continue to have a roof over my head. Yeah! Season finale of Army wife's tomorrow. Wahoo.... I am a pathetic excuse for exciting but dreams are good.
As a follow up, there are many soldiers that are not home. (sorry, not a great segway); however, we need your help. Log onto www.uso.org. I am singing at HH McQuire VA hospital on December. Please come and say thanks to those who serve. If you can bring clean socks, CD's, Books or anything that won't melt (Iraq and Afganistan may still be hot) please do. Thank you...................
The one thing you really never read about before children is that EVERYTHING and I mean EVERYTHING comes with a battery. Much like a great conspiracy theory, not just one battery but MANY and not all the same type. Whether it is the bouncy, the swing, the play mate it is a battery free for all!!!!Mental note to self, if you ever have another child...REGISTER FOR BATTERIES and a lifetime supply if possible!
So Andy is at Nascar with his buddies and I am with my Mother in law for the weekend. I will leave it at that as it has been just a horrible week and has ended as such. I am in hopes that the sun will shine tomorrow and I continue to have a roof over my head. Yeah! Season finale of Army wife's tomorrow. Wahoo.... I am a pathetic excuse for exciting but dreams are good.
As a follow up, there are many soldiers that are not home. (sorry, not a great segway); however, we need your help. Log onto www.uso.org. I am singing at HH McQuire VA hospital on December. Please come and say thanks to those who serve. If you can bring clean socks, CD's, Books or anything that won't melt (Iraq and Afganistan may still be hot) please do. Thank you...................
Thursday, October 15, 2009
So today was my appeals case from the Department of Maryland. My ex-employer does not want to pay unemployment so there was a version of a hearing. I should have known as it was raining that the day would end up gloomy. I got so lost. In my GPS I put in the exact address and I swear it lead me to a neighborhood. So after numerous panic calls, I found the location which was behind a mall.
As I entered I could hear my ex-employer making reference to Mrs International. It is funny that for a company that you can't even access external websites from the office somehow someone manage to find my blog (or as he said someone was looking up personal websites) and print it out. Because I was late, completely my fault, my time had passed to state any rebuttal and the lady doing the hearing was clearly disgruntled with me being late (and I do understand that but I was lost, wish I could take it back) My ex- employer was referring to me doing pageants as an issue. So here is my rebuttal for what it is worth....
She competed in Alabama~ I did NOT I was appointed the title. However, even if I did, pageants happen over weekends which last time I checked were still my time.
Then I competed in Chicago, mind you after I got fired. Most don't know as I didn't publish it but I had backed out of the pageant prior. My son had spent almost 6 months in the NICU and had been very sick so I was concerned with various aspects of my life.
So, I never signed ANY FMLA paper work and was under the impression that I would be returning the end of July. I had kept in contact with HR and was working home. Everything seemed fine and my boss never really responded to anything so I just assumed all was fine. 6 weeks after my son came home. I was let go on the 15th via email and I still have that email after he concluded that he didn't feel I could find adequate child care in that time so we needed to part ways. I don't believe he stated that today but I was late so maybe I missed it. Although apparently he had said I wasn't coming back, which was not true. Heaven forbid you want to do anything to make you smile. You must just be a horrible person.
So here is my issue with everything. I do not believe that returning 6 weeks after my son came home to work is out of line. I offered to return and he said no but I could reapply. My son SPENT 6 MONTHS in the NICU and is still on oxygen and a feeding tube. Pageantry, for the few days of the actual event but the countless hours of community service it has afforded me over the past 10 years, has been my escape in a very rough year for myself. I am a proud Army wife, a Mother of a disabled child and is willing to work 24/7 for my jobs in and out of the home. If their rebuttal is because I do pageants, then so be it. Maybe someone should start to question golfing or any other thing you may do outside the home.
I have NEVER looked for a free handout but to question my integrity, loyalty and commitment to what I do, then you don't know me at all. If I was a bad employee for pageants and the community work I did on MY TIME with the USO, AHA, March of Dimes or Breast Cancer awareness...then so be it, that is their opinion.
When will the government protect those who want to work and have fallen on hard times.
Might I add that my ex-boss has since got promoted. Apparently he succeeded in his budget cuts. Good job.
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Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Can you believe it is only 10 weeks until Christmas!!!!!!!
I will be singing on Dec 4th at HH MCQuire VA hospital in Virginia and I need your help. If you are able to come and help out, donate a gift (socks, CD's, books, a smile) or bring a smile through song or dance....let me know!!!!! This is what the holidays are about.
They gave for us so we should always give for them.
Support the Troops~
With love
Deanna
email me @ deannamlinz@aol.com if you can help!
I will be singing on Dec 4th at HH MCQuire VA hospital in Virginia and I need your help. If you are able to come and help out, donate a gift (socks, CD's, books, a smile) or bring a smile through song or dance....let me know!!!!! This is what the holidays are about.
They gave for us so we should always give for them.
Support the Troops~
With love
Deanna
email me @ deannamlinz@aol.com if you can help!
I have become somewhat of a night owl. I guess I always have been. It started back when I use to model for HSN and our shows were in the middle of the night. Back then, I used to wonder who buys in the middle of the night and now I get it. After hosting a few infomercials myself, I actually have become a customer to a few of the gimmicks. Lets face it, when your exhausted and can only shower in passing AND YOU ACTUALLY ASK YOUR HUSBAND IF YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH YESTERDAY...who would not succumb to the promises of losing weight, erasing wrinkles and being perfect in less than 60 seconds on an infomercial. In the middle of the night, a time when dreams are made, why not dream of perfection????? I say this all while sporting my fitflop shoe that I purchased from Victoria's Secret as I write this. Here is hoping!!!!!!!
So this brings me to my thoughts for today. Yes, I have a few that may not be grammatically correct but are my thoughts....scary as that may be.
Past the infomercials of the promises of perfect skin, weight lose and silky hair there are the ACTUAL commercials (well really infomercials hidden in a 30 sec spot) that really catch my attention. If you are up say at 3am...here is your night.
Law and Order~ the Catheter spot. We have the pleasure of hearing about having to REUSE a catheter. A reason alone that our health care system needs to be re-evaluated!
Without a Trace (love this show. My secret crush besides Anderson Cooper is in this show)~ the male enhancement product. Over and over and over again. As an FYI, overnight time is cheaper which is why it is laced with infomercials. I guess if you are up at 4 or 5 am, maybe a male enhancement product is what you are looking for.
Then there are the disclaimers. I want thick long lashes but if the product says it may change my EYE RETINA COLOR PERMANENTLY to brown, (I am blue eyed), I am not really sold. This also reminds me of the heart or asthma med that disclaim at 90 miles an hour in small print. It usually end in results may vary, may cause death.
So today I am writing MY DISCLAIMER:
Over 25+ Mother. Works hard, lives life, works out and cooks, cleans, changes diapers and has the occasional glass of wine. Weight fluctuates but never past embarrassing and embraces a better living through chemistry. Showers bi-weekly, has all her teethe and can dress up for a noted occasions.Need love, life and laughter. Oscar hopeful, Grammy hopeful and Tony...yes he was once in her life and she might (hahahahahahah) one day win SOMETHING. Individual results may vary, paid endorser, has been known to be a queen.
So this brings me to my thoughts for today. Yes, I have a few that may not be grammatically correct but are my thoughts....scary as that may be.
Past the infomercials of the promises of perfect skin, weight lose and silky hair there are the ACTUAL commercials (well really infomercials hidden in a 30 sec spot) that really catch my attention. If you are up say at 3am...here is your night.
Law and Order~ the Catheter spot. We have the pleasure of hearing about having to REUSE a catheter. A reason alone that our health care system needs to be re-evaluated!
Without a Trace (love this show. My secret crush besides Anderson Cooper is in this show)~ the male enhancement product. Over and over and over again. As an FYI, overnight time is cheaper which is why it is laced with infomercials. I guess if you are up at 4 or 5 am, maybe a male enhancement product is what you are looking for.
Then there are the disclaimers. I want thick long lashes but if the product says it may change my EYE RETINA COLOR PERMANENTLY to brown, (I am blue eyed), I am not really sold. This also reminds me of the heart or asthma med that disclaim at 90 miles an hour in small print. It usually end in results may vary, may cause death.
So today I am writing MY DISCLAIMER:
Over 25+ Mother. Works hard, lives life, works out and cooks, cleans, changes diapers and has the occasional glass of wine. Weight fluctuates but never past embarrassing and embraces a better living through chemistry. Showers bi-weekly, has all her teethe and can dress up for a noted occasions.Need love, life and laughter. Oscar hopeful, Grammy hopeful and Tony...yes he was once in her life and she might (hahahahahahah) one day win SOMETHING. Individual results may vary, paid endorser, has been known to be a queen.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
My entire life, and yes, I say entire...I have strived to have confidence. My biggest downfall has been the belief in myself. Lets face it, when you look around there are those that are prettier, thinner, more accomplished and "perfect" in our minds. This is a factor in every aspect of our lives. Jobs, raising children, heck even going to a doctor...what flaw will they find? I won a pageant once (imagine my utter shock) and the judges critique after the fact went something like this. Change your song, your gown, lose weight and get a tan...but you are really smart. Isn't that what they say to sell a blind date when a girl might be you know......really how did I win?
So this brings me back to the ultimate question. How do you become CONFIDENT without being arrogant? If someone ask you, "Are you beautiful"? what is the answer? Do you you well NO. If you do it comes across insecure and not ready for the job. If you say, "yes", you must be arrogant.
What is the magic touch that makes someone have that "thing" we all aspire to have? How can you have that "thing" and talk about the "it" factor without seeming like you expect it. What is the "it" factor?
Is being "it' just believing you are it or is "IT" really just a noun we describe as an adjective in hopes of giving it more definition? How do we define ourselves?
So this brings me back to the ultimate question. How do you become CONFIDENT without being arrogant? If someone ask you, "Are you beautiful"? what is the answer? Do you you well NO. If you do it comes across insecure and not ready for the job. If you say, "yes", you must be arrogant.
What is the magic touch that makes someone have that "thing" we all aspire to have? How can you have that "thing" and talk about the "it" factor without seeming like you expect it. What is the "it" factor?
Is being "it' just believing you are it or is "IT" really just a noun we describe as an adjective in hopes of giving it more definition? How do we define ourselves?
Friday, October 09, 2009
I was speaking to a friend of mine the other day in reference to the truth about lying. It is so true that we are all born with the unconditional ability to love everyone. Until you stick us, yell at us, deny us from food or make us lounge in a dirty diaper too long, we all love unconditionally. Then at some point it happens. Perhaps Santa can be blamed for the Adam and Eve moment that changes it all but we begin to tell stories that in all likelihood are not true.
So I was thinking what it might be like if we could not lie...There would be no
Santa
Easter Bunny
Fairy God Mother
Charlie Brown
Snow White
Cinderella
Magazine Covers (no photo shop)
Celebrities (because no one is perfect)
Pageant Queens
BAD FOOD
Annoying in laws (because they just would talk to you:)
Happy Marriages (because my husband better always tell me I am the most beautiful women in the room:)
And much more.....
It seems we raise our children on the 70/30/10 rule. 70% of what we say is true. 30% is the hope of what we say is true but may not be and 10% is based on the fantasy that Santa Clause comes every year, Prince Charming/Cinderella does exist and if you keep buying the lottery ticket you just may win because someone must, right?
I am throwing my name in for the Nobel Peace Prize. Here is to the 10% rule.
So I was thinking what it might be like if we could not lie...There would be no
Santa
Easter Bunny
Fairy God Mother
Charlie Brown
Snow White
Cinderella
Magazine Covers (no photo shop)
Celebrities (because no one is perfect)
Pageant Queens
BAD FOOD
Annoying in laws (because they just would talk to you:)
Happy Marriages (because my husband better always tell me I am the most beautiful women in the room:)
And much more.....
It seems we raise our children on the 70/30/10 rule. 70% of what we say is true. 30% is the hope of what we say is true but may not be and 10% is based on the fantasy that Santa Clause comes every year, Prince Charming/Cinderella does exist and if you keep buying the lottery ticket you just may win because someone must, right?
I am throwing my name in for the Nobel Peace Prize. Here is to the 10% rule.
Military Moms Get the Baby Shower They Missed
Military moms whose babies were born too soon or too sick were treated to a special baby shower at the Portsmouth Naval Medical Center Neonatal Intensive Care Unit (NICU), courtesy of the March of Dimes and Operation Shower. Moms and dads received baby supplies, clothing, toys, books and much more, courtesy of Kmart and other generous donors.
During the baby shower, the March of Dimes announced the re-launch of Mission: Healthy Baby®, a program designed specifically for military families to provide free pregnancy and newborn health information and support services. The program was developed with the Veterans of Foreign Wars and the Ladies Auxiliary VFW.
Military moms whose babies were born too soon or too sick were treated to a special baby shower at the Portsmouth Naval Medical Center Neonatal Intensive Care Unit (NICU), courtesy of the March of Dimes and Operation Shower. Moms and dads received baby supplies, clothing, toys, books and much more, courtesy of Kmart and other generous donors.
During the baby shower, the March of Dimes announced the re-launch of Mission: Healthy Baby®, a program designed specifically for military families to provide free pregnancy and newborn health information and support services. The program was developed with the Veterans of Foreign Wars and the Ladies Auxiliary VFW.
Wednesday, October 07, 2009
Today was just one of those days. Sleep has just become a faint memory of the past and the days I actually make it to the shower it is because I am forced to leave the house:)
Carter had his first follow up surgery from ROP surgery Carter had Retinopathy of Prematurity and had surgery prior to leaving the NICU. We are happy as he can see which is God's blessing but we found out today he needs glasses. Because this is not covered by insurance and I have no idea where to find them, I am now on a journey to find someone who carries infant frames so I can get his prescription filled. As I said to Carter,"Hey, Harry Potter has glasses and is pretty cool".
Yes and for the negative nellies out there, it did/does make me sad because as a Mother you cannot help but always think what could have I done to change this. AJ, my BFF ( I just love that acronym:) pointed out something to me today though. Even in a perfect scenario, he could have still had sight issues. Andy had PRK surgery so his eye sight was not good previously.
Love my friends....
Carter had his first follow up surgery from ROP surgery Carter had Retinopathy of Prematurity and had surgery prior to leaving the NICU. We are happy as he can see which is God's blessing but we found out today he needs glasses. Because this is not covered by insurance and I have no idea where to find them, I am now on a journey to find someone who carries infant frames so I can get his prescription filled. As I said to Carter,"Hey, Harry Potter has glasses and is pretty cool".
Yes and for the negative nellies out there, it did/does make me sad because as a Mother you cannot help but always think what could have I done to change this. AJ, my BFF ( I just love that acronym:) pointed out something to me today though. Even in a perfect scenario, he could have still had sight issues. Andy had PRK surgery so his eye sight was not good previously.
Love my friends....
Monday, October 05, 2009
Ahhhh...the lovely acrimonious naysayers of the virtual voy world strike again. Gotta love the haters whom stand behind self righteousness and do so with such passion for their causes that they actually forget to sign their names....imagination that???? I am sure they must have just forgot, after all if someone in all their infinite wisdom is so concerned with the well fair of others they MUST have forgotten. I mean who would not want to help a fellow tiara hunter in need????
Geez, as a friend pointed out to me today...are you a rabbit? You mention cabbage???? Come on people.
Lets just for fun define LITERAL versus a comedic reference. I am in need of using big words today in light of my new found somber sobriety so why not??? Nah, I'll just stick with my metaphors and throw back a few while I write.....
Just because you make reference to drinking, it does not make you an alcoholic. Just because you joke about your Mother in law, doesn't mean you don't love her and mostly....just because you compete in pageants...it does not mean you don't have a life because I do. I have every right to be sad at times, happy during others and throw back the occasional glass of sparkling water:) Did I mention I have been known to eat pizza too???? Yep thats right, a carb has crossed my lips. Oh, no....strike up the band.
We are Mothers, Wife's, Daughters, Sisters and occasionally a showered version of all above. Relax....Hypocrisy is those who judge on the sideline through a mountain of glass that will never break. Why, because it isn't real. The world they see themselves through is one that doesn't exist.
Perfection is your God, my God. Past that I am still a work in progress.
Now pass the Vino....
Geez, as a friend pointed out to me today...are you a rabbit? You mention cabbage???? Come on people.
Lets just for fun define LITERAL versus a comedic reference. I am in need of using big words today in light of my new found somber sobriety so why not??? Nah, I'll just stick with my metaphors and throw back a few while I write.....
Just because you make reference to drinking, it does not make you an alcoholic. Just because you joke about your Mother in law, doesn't mean you don't love her and mostly....just because you compete in pageants...it does not mean you don't have a life because I do. I have every right to be sad at times, happy during others and throw back the occasional glass of sparkling water:) Did I mention I have been known to eat pizza too???? Yep thats right, a carb has crossed my lips. Oh, no....strike up the band.
We are Mothers, Wife's, Daughters, Sisters and occasionally a showered version of all above. Relax....Hypocrisy is those who judge on the sideline through a mountain of glass that will never break. Why, because it isn't real. The world they see themselves through is one that doesn't exist.
Perfection is your God, my God. Past that I am still a work in progress.
Now pass the Vino....
Sunday, October 04, 2009
It hits me sometimes how self righteous I can be in my own right. I sit back and judge , wait to be judged and then judge those who judge me. Really, it is all about self judgement.
This year has been an incredibly hard year for me yet I wouldn't change a thing. In my own self pity I miss my job, my dream of becoming Mrs International( don't laugh...its not about the crown but about the gift to be better tomorrow than today and yes I realize a crown does not make that. I certainly learned that this year harder than most)and just a breathe of fresh air I crave to breathe every day.
I am so far from perfect but I think that memo is well spread. What I am continuing to learn is that life gives you challenges and God knows what you can handle. For me, its memories of the past and hope for the future.
My Mom was found deceased in 2004 at our home at 56 (from renal surgery due to congestive heart failure. They think she had a clot) and her boyfriend killed himself 2 months later, my Dad died of a heart attack in 2001 at 54, my Brother who passed that I will never know but I still have the MOST amazing BIG Brother in my life and my sister Denice...I never wish to rekindle your story but I really hope you find your peace and I love you.
Tonight I am purging because we have choices in life. You make time for what you want to make time for in life or your make excuses. Choose love, life and faith.
Tomorrow I am back to shampoo.....checking out on drama in 2009......xxoo
This year has been an incredibly hard year for me yet I wouldn't change a thing. In my own self pity I miss my job, my dream of becoming Mrs International( don't laugh...its not about the crown but about the gift to be better tomorrow than today and yes I realize a crown does not make that. I certainly learned that this year harder than most)and just a breathe of fresh air I crave to breathe every day.
I am so far from perfect but I think that memo is well spread. What I am continuing to learn is that life gives you challenges and God knows what you can handle. For me, its memories of the past and hope for the future.
My Mom was found deceased in 2004 at our home at 56 (from renal surgery due to congestive heart failure. They think she had a clot) and her boyfriend killed himself 2 months later, my Dad died of a heart attack in 2001 at 54, my Brother who passed that I will never know but I still have the MOST amazing BIG Brother in my life and my sister Denice...I never wish to rekindle your story but I really hope you find your peace and I love you.
Tonight I am purging because we have choices in life. You make time for what you want to make time for in life or your make excuses. Choose love, life and faith.
Tomorrow I am back to shampoo.....checking out on drama in 2009......xxoo
Friday, October 02, 2009
Daily kick to the gut...
So an ex director (not mine because I never won her state pageant...of course) preceeded to tell someone that hey ( as a reference) ...my first runner up, who was a finalist at nationals the year prior and went back and did NADA.. In 2006 I was top 10 and 2008 3rd runner up. I had a baby and many blessing. Not my best year and would not change anything because I have Carter. I hate judgement of the unknown!
Different judges, different day, did she not get the memo?
Just made me sad today...to steal a quote from a country song...find out who your friends are. Got it, I am not Brittany but it hurts just the same.
So an ex director (not mine because I never won her state pageant...of course) preceeded to tell someone that hey ( as a reference) ...my first runner up, who was a finalist at nationals the year prior and went back and did NADA.. In 2006 I was top 10 and 2008 3rd runner up. I had a baby and many blessing. Not my best year and would not change anything because I have Carter. I hate judgement of the unknown!
Different judges, different day, did she not get the memo?
Just made me sad today...to steal a quote from a country song...find out who your friends are. Got it, I am not Brittany but it hurts just the same.
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