Matriach

I often wonder my strength. God gives you only what you can handle, right? Well he clearly has more faith in me than I do in myself.

As I petition, pray , hope for a non eventful January, well its not so good. My Grandmas' cancer is back and at 88 she is moving forward with chemo again. She had heart surgery last year and chemo 6 years ago for colon cancer. I guess I have some strong genes in my bloodline. The cancer is everywhere.

I lost my parents so she is my parent so to speak.

My family likes to one up. I say this jokingly. I have a sister, biological. Way to much Jerry Springer there but I spoke with her last night. The last time I saw her was my Moms funeral. The same day my Grandpa died. Yep, we like to one up. So last night my sister and I spoke. She has cancer. Can we not make a call without a ping pong match?

I spent 3 hours at the hospital today. Timing check here?

I have Ischemic Optic Neuropathy. With my Cardiovascular disease, pregnancy issues, DVT  so much more, what a catch I am! I don't fit the mold. I am so blessed for my children and my life but its often a reminder, and not to seem morbid, but life can and often is short. As heart month is approaching, its important to understand your body. I had a heart attack in my 30's! It just is in my genes.

I believe in love and life. Don't forget to hug someone everyday and be thankful for the blessings in your life.

Here's to your heart.....