Wonder Women

In a time a long ago, I remember standing on a picnic table right before the storm. The wind was fierce and the sky was approaching darkness. Somehow the wind gave me breath and as a child it lifted me in a way to inspire dreams. I don't know if it was the warm Georgia winds or the fearless ness at the time but I felt I could do anything. That's the moment my internal fighter was born.

I question, I sit, wonder and have my personal conversations with God (no worries he has not verbally answered back) about my life. In reflection, I see far from 20/20. I just see memories and questions. I have come to see that I am not loved, beloved, adored or admired as a whole. I don't know what I did to make haters hate but I will always own I put myself out there to be judged so don't judge the jury. Law 101.

If you are reading my blog you already know I put "most" things out there and some you never hear about. Its life.

I spent a horrific day at the hospital today. I have hospital PTSD disorder. My ED attending and the staff was beyond kind but I am SOOOOOOO tired of being in a hospital that my flight and fight fully kicked in. I just need someone to come in, test and be done. Is 20 minutes unreasonable? Ok maybe 2 hours but come on....work on the Emergency Departments time! I was transported from my doctors to the ED and this was my wait. Can you imagine triage??

I have no conclusion to this post that is relevant.

My day...I am tired, I am scared and I feel...well...it is what it is.