My heart is dying today. Piece by piece and I know God has given me a few passes. This I am putting out their because she is love, MY HALO LOVE and my first born. My parents passed in 2001 and 2004. They were both very young and unrelated heart events. I took my Dad's passing hard but quiet. He was 54 and always seemed healthy. He had been the provider, Father, Husband and Grandfather to my family. He was a strong man but stubborn. Which is why he passed. He did not take care of himself. I fear that for my Brother who I adore and admire but he is a bit stubborn also about health issues.
I was having a hard time so one day my Mom shows up at my apartment in Palm Harbor , Florida with a 365 oz puppy. She was a ball of fur as I was sure she was a gerbil at the time. When my Dad passed, Beanie Babies were the rage and I loved the sayings on their tags. I had a little white bear with angel wings and a HALO and its name was Halo. The poem read:
Little angel up above
Guard me with your special love
Make sure that you will always be
By my side and close to me !
Halo passed on September 3 and I feel a pain like I have never felt in my life. With the loss of Halo I also lost my parents again. More so, she has been by my side for 14 and half years through many countries and many journeys. It was just Halo and I (and Josie) for many of those years but Halo never left me, always loved me, always looked for me and kissed away so many tears. She was and will always be my Angel.
I am beyond broken as this is the worst pain of my life.
My heart, my Halo love and just such a part of me.
Mommy misses you and I am forever lost without you. I love you. Please be ok in heaven with no fear, no hurt and a lot of steak and bacon...with mashed potato's.
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