It hits me sometimes how self righteous I can be in my own right. I sit back and judge , wait to be judged and then judge those who judge me. Really, it is all about self judgement.
This year has been an incredibly hard year for me yet I wouldn't change a thing. In my own self pity I miss my job, my dream of becoming Mrs International( don't laugh...its not about the crown but about the gift to be better tomorrow than today and yes I realize a crown does not make that. I certainly learned that this year harder than most)and just a breathe of fresh air I crave to breathe every day.
I am so far from perfect but I think that memo is well spread. What I am continuing to learn is that life gives you challenges and God knows what you can handle. For me, its memories of the past and hope for the future.
My Mom was found deceased in 2004 at our home at 56 (from renal surgery due to congestive heart failure. They think she had a clot) and her boyfriend killed himself 2 months later, my Dad died of a heart attack in 2001 at 54, my Brother who passed that I will never know but I still have the MOST amazing BIG Brother in my life and my sister Denice...I never wish to rekindle your story but I really hope you find your peace and I love you.
Tonight I am purging because we have choices in life. You make time for what you want to make time for in life or your make excuses. Choose love, life and faith.
Tomorrow I am back to shampoo.....checking out on drama in 2009......xxoo
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