Well, maybe not really.
I was laying in the hospital in the ER and I felt again like an idiot. I started to think maybe I am crazy and just developed white coat syndrome or am I a hypochondriac and then I realized....
Why are numbers important? There is a reason why heart disease is silent. No one hears numbers. Hey, I ignore them when my husband mentions them because we are under deposited:)
I spent 7 hours of internal debate and I remembered when I was young I got into a car accident. After the fact, I was driving and so afraid of it happening again I ran myself off the road.
Then I laid there missing my Mom. I used to talk with her everyday. She was my respite. She drove me home from work everyday on the phone and then visited me with my diet coke or had it on hand. I am a Pemberton so maybe a genetic addiction?
I can't imagine anyone having a life changing moment that does not feel like "will", "might" it happen again. Death, Cancer, heart disease, an accident. It all raises the big question of time. What is my time, when is my time, have I had enough time.
I remember when my Dad had blown out his mitralve valve and had surgery, they said he was ok. I walked outside and took such a deep breath and thanked God. He never woke up and a week later he died. I have never regained that breathe.
My mom came in a phone call. My Mom had a double valve replacement which came with a warranty and multiple bypasses. First stroke in her 30's, then heart failure. She was found at our house in Georgia after she threw a clot. I was coming down from Tennessee that weekend and she had my diet coke in stock.Skip killed himself a month later.
Gene pool donation, probably not in the running.
Numbers. I saw them as I stared at my Dads monitors and my Moms I lived everyday through blood checks and so much more.
Why do numbers matter? Why do cholesterol numbers matter?
My son is 3. He has no maternal Grandparents. 54 & 56
Numbers matter. Learn yours.
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